It’s well after midnight….coming up on 12:30. 😅
And I continue to pound away at my journal catch up efforts. I never would have guessed that it would take this long and require this much effort.
Wow.
I’m pretty burnt out. 😅
Good day today, though. I actually started off with a prayer 🤯, and something happened that wasn’t at all on my radar: There’s a particular person toward whom, over the last handful of months, my feelings have descended to the angry… even venomous, lashing out internally, sometimes verbally when thinking about that person, despite that person not even being in my life anymore.
Well, as I was there on my bed this morning, I think shortly after praying, for whatever reason, this person came to mind; and instead of reacting with anger and venom as has been my recent custom, I felt… love.
😶
I… didn’t expect that. And it felt like a reminder from God of what happens when I loosen my grip on my doubt of and anger toward him and simply reach out again.
Anyway… it was a very unexpected experience this morning.
I watched a moving talk from Elder Kevin Brown from this last General Conference, listened to a chapter or two of the Book of Mormon, and I think watched some other gospel-related stuff on YouTube.
And then I don’t into the project that has been consuming my days for seemingly ages now–my journal catch-up efforts.
I only had 1 1/2 entries to finish writing in order to get caught up from all my long past entries. I’ve got some recent ones that I haven’t completed from this last week, but they shouldn’t be too hard, as a lot of what I’ve done for the last week has simply been journaling.
Doesn’t take much to write about that. 🙃
I texted back and forth with my brother Jared a little bit and then chatted with him and Cortney via Google Meet for a good little bit. They had been down to support my dad and stepmom with their current health issues.
After chatting with them, I think I ate a late breakfast and then dove right back into journaling, spending nearly the entire day just trying to complete those 1 and 1/2 entries. 😅
Oh the cruel irony of having those last two entries take so freaking long. 🙃
But they’re done now. Done! 🥳
I texted back and forth a fair bit with my mom and my sister Heather, as well as a little bit with some friends of mine.
And then, instead of taking a break, I dove right back into my journal efforts. 🙃 I’d finished writing all of the long past entries, but I still needed to add pictures to them. That job is definitely quicker than the writing, but it’s still not quick, by any means.
I think I got something like 14 journal entries posted today. That was a pretty big deal for feeling like I was really making progress. Now instead of being a month and a half beyond, I’m not even two weeks behind! 🥳
I ate some dinner, kept right on working on my journal catch-up efforts, but taking small brakes here and there to take pictures of the sunset.
After busting my butt trying to make even more progress with my journaling, I spent a good little while veging out in front of various YouTube videos, then did even more journaling before finally writing this one for today.
The clock just hit 1:00 a.m., and I’m pre-migraining a little bit (headache starting in), apparently not having taken as good a care of myself as I thought I did today? 🤷
Oh well. Time for bed.
Love to all. 🩵
Lift the world.
Bring it on.
~ stephen
Lift the World 