Hola, folks! Much more positive day today, though I don't really take any credit for it. Today I returned to my lifelong default activity--dam the moving water. 🙃 But I'll get to that... Last night, I stayed the night again at the Provo Canyon diversion dam parking lot. No police this time, so that was … Continue reading 2022-07-18 — Damming… My Default

I went to bed relatively early last night, something like 11:00, and I didn't get up until like 11:00 again. I think it was 10:45 or so. Spent a few hours up South fork Canyon with my oldest brother. That was pretty cool. Hope we can do that again soon. Spent some time with my … Continue reading 2022-07-17 — Family Here, There, Everywhere

It's crazy that past halfway through with July already... Spent most of the day up Provo Canyon today after crashing in the Springville Walmart parking lot last night. I'm a little over the edge, but hopefully, we'll get that straightened out tomorrow morning. I did a little bit more on the exploring front, checking out … Continue reading 2022-07-16 — Plowing Through July

Tried to spend a lot less time sliding into thinking about things that are painful. So... today wasn't as painful. Again, good to be with family. Hard to watch my aunt deteriorating. Still have lots of things to work through just to know where a I'm at and where I'm going, but it was a … Continue reading 2022-07-15 — A Bit Lighter

I slept in a little later this morning, as it was cloudy, so the sudden didn't bake the car as soon as it came up. I think it was 9 something before I finally got up for the last time. One of the first things that I did was check the news, where I saw … Continue reading 2022-07-14 — Down Up

After taking the night shift watching over my aunt as the last of her mortal days slip away, I took a very long nap (another 4 hours or so), are breakfast, chatted a little with family, and then, feeling lonely and struggling quite a bit internally, despite wonderful, loving family all around, I drove away … Continue reading 2022-07-13 — Mountain Retreat

Hey all, Today was a repeat of yesterday. Good to see family, cousins I hadn't seen in years. My sister from South Dakota, a 1st cousin once removed, I believe is the proper relation, etc. Love and hugs. Yep. Good to see them. Personally, I'm doing much worse. I'm fighting the internal battle between not … Continue reading 2022-07-12 — Repeat

Happy 7-11 Day. 🙂 Did you get your free slurpee? It's been good to spend time with family today. It's also been hard. I'm not doing well. It's time for me to go to bed, so I guess this is all you're going to get today. Love and hugs. Lift the World ~ stephen

Tossed and turned, my brain churning and churning. A million thoughts racing and keeping me awake. When I finally feel asleep again, I had a dream that things were finally possible with a special someone, after waiting and waiting and waiting, but then... she didn't want me. Not a very fun dream. But that's ok. … Continue reading 2022-07-10 — My Favorite Canyon

Hiya, folks. It's been a hard, rough, painful day. I'm tired. I'm discouraged. I'm lonely. It was a day with ups and downs, like every other. I'm just... yeah. Catch y'all tomorrow. Love and hugs. Lift the World ~ stephen