Holar, my folks! Happy Sunday madrugada! Been a good day today. For starters, I got up at 5:30!!! What a improvement! Yay! (don't think I'm gonna match that, as I'm pretty tired, couldn't fall asleep last night, so I only got like 4 hours of sleep. But I got up at 5:30, chatted with Big … Continue reading 2021-05-08 — Steady Onward

So much has been on my mind recently. The brain swirls. I slept in again today (partly the product of going to bed so late again). I again made the poor choice to finish a movie I'd already started the day before instead of just going to bed. I don't want to waste my life … Continue reading 2021-05-07 — Another Step Up

Hiya, folks. It's been quite the day for me today. I slept in a bit and took it pretty easy with work stuff, just doing three very simple jobs (no start, he'd run out of gas; running rough, had a bad coil; and no start... needed a battery). Taking it easy with work stuff was … Continue reading 2021-05-06 — Another Reconnection

Better day today than yesterday. Got out of bed. Did some laundry. Did three cars--noise diagnosis (bad fan), wheel wobble diagnosis (bad inner tie rods), and a starter replacement (ignition wire was shorted to itself, so once engaged, it would just crank and crank and crank. Got a little more done on the assessment work … Continue reading 2021-05-05 — Digging A Little

I haven't left my bed pretty much all day. Paralyzed again. Falling apart. Can't seem to face life. ~ stephen

Hey, folks, thanks, for your support! I'm in a much better place today than I was yesterday. I'm not 100%, but I'm much much better. It's been relapses, lots of wasted time, feeling emotionally and physically paralyzed and spiritually nearly dead, but now I'm feeling much better than yesterday. I sort of took the day … Continue reading 2021-05-03 — Pulling Out

I'm a bit paralyzed today. I can't even do the things I love--enjoy the rain on my day off, participate in the family meeting. I can't get myself to do anything but watch documentaries of various historical things and debates about the existence of God, etc. I'm just... paralyzed. Depression settling in. 🙁 ~ stephen

Impromptu day off today. Bookend relapses with a day full of service between. Certainly not a great day but... I'm gonna focus on the good. I chose to take today off instead of pushing myself further when I was already down. So that was good. I spent the day helping other people, fixing a couple … Continue reading 2021-05-01 — Trying to Slow Down

No, I didn't miss today. It may be 5:55 a.m., but I haven't gone to bed yet. In fact, I only just now walked in the door. It's been a long, very frustrating night. I've just been... livid. The day went decently well up until about 7:30 or so (warranty battery job, battery job, no … Continue reading 2021-04-30 — No, I Didn’t Miss Today

Hey, y'all! Happy... what day is it? Thursday! Happy Thursday! It's been an interesting day today. The story of today actually starts yesterday. I need to do my assessment, right? And it was raining pretty good yesterday, so I thought, I'll pull everything out of the Durango, throw it in the garage, and then that'll … Continue reading 2021-04-29 — I Will Listen Next Time