(written on December 18th from notes taken previously) Today was trading devastation. 🙁 All the growth and progress I thought I had made was out the window and gone... and not just gone--obliterated. I lossed another $12,000 today. 😶 I was stunned. Stung to my core. Angry. Discouraged. I talked on the phone with my … Continue reading 2025-11-19 (Wednesday) — Trading Destruction

(written on December 18th from notes taken previously) Back to trading today! Just about right off the bat I was up $174. 🎉 Aaaaaaaand then--bang! I was down nearly $300. 😬 But I didn't panic! I locked in and worked really hard and clawed my way from being down nearly $300 to being back up … Continue reading 2025-11-18 (Tuesday) — Internet Junkie

(written on December 8th and 18th from notes taken previously) I was slow getting going this morning, just hanging out in my van for a good little while. After I finally got up and going, I hung out with the Belgian family for a bit, helping them get their roof top tent stowed away properly. … Continue reading 2025-11-17 (Monday) — Belgian Waterfall

(written on December 8th from notes taken previously) Overripe bananas with yogurt for breakfast. That... didn't do me so well, though I learned something useful. Overripe bananas can trigger migraines in some people. Apparently, I'm some people. 🙃 Took me a little while to get my church clothes figured out, as they've been stuffed in … Continue reading 2025-11-16 (Sunday) — Back to Waipu

(written on December 6th from notes taken previously.) I slept through my first trading alarm. I suppose that's not much of a surprise, since I've been significantly sleep deprived since I started trading. I think I got maybe a couple hours last night? I started out with a couple of weak sauce trades, and then … Continue reading 2025-11-15 (Saturday) — Trading Windows

(Written on December 4th from notes taken previously) I was up and awake... nervous... what was going to happen?!?! The spread got narrower and narrower, looking more like it was going to go break not in my favor. But it was such a good position, I'd thought... [sigh] Started the trading day with prayer and … Continue reading 2025-11-14 (Friday) — Dis-Assemble

(written on December 4th from notes taken previously) So... what to do... Do I give up on trading again, so I don't risk losing more because of my inability to follow my own rules and inability to manage my emotions, or do I see if I can actually knuckle down, keep my rules, maintain control … Continue reading 2025-11-13 (Thursday) — Real Duct Tape

(written on the 4th from digital self stalking data) Another rough day trading. My thought was to not just quit like before. Try again. Be disciplined. But lost a fair bit again--Another $1400 today. Traded for a long time, I think. Then made a really great decision on a stock transaction in principle, but watched … Continue reading 2025-11-12 (Wednesday) — Trading Down… Again 😕

(written on December 2nd and 4th) The trading week started again, and... I lost a lot of my self discipline and returned to my emotional trading ways. 😞 I spent a good while working with customer service, one of the issues being my trying to figure out how to change my default share size, which … Continue reading 2025-11-11 (Tuesday) — Trading… Down. 😕

(Written on December 2nd and 4th) I'm alive! No one came to this creepy-ish little place and killed me in the night. 🙃 💪 Obviously, it wasn't really named Garbage Falls--Wairua Falls, actually. But after a good little while collecting garbage and piling it up, including about a dozen tires dumped in the shrubs, this … Continue reading 2025-11-10 (Monday) — A Little Tire-ing