(written on the 13th) It's been a rough little bit. That's a pretty big understatement. There's not really much I want to say. I want there to be a record of my life that I can look back on, and maybe other people can learn from, even if I lack the personal fortitude to better … Continue reading 2025-01-12 (Sunday) — Days Just… Go By

Well, after long last, ET found a new home. As a chicken coop. 😶 Not quite what I envisioned after I spent so much time and energy and effort and money trying to make it look nice again for our Great Western road trip in '23 and then even more time and effort for the … Continue reading 2025-01-07 (Tuesday) — ET Flew The Coop

I just don't know what to think these days. I'm still shell-shocked from having lost so much money in such a little time because I just couldn't do what I knew I needed to do. It hasn't really sunk in. And I guess it doesn't really sink in so much because it's just numbers in … Continue reading 2025-01-06 (Monday) — Thoughts

It's not even noon. I've lost almost $20,000 trading since I started. I just couldn't stop myself today. Down nearly $16000 in just one day. There was nothing good to trade today during trading time, but could I have any discipline to not trade? Nope. I knew I wasn't doing what I should. I knew … Continue reading 2025-01-02 (Thursday) — New Year, Same Pathetic Me

It was a bit of a rough night last night. I went to bed earlier than I have in a long long time, and I had crazy weird dreams all night, sort of lucid dreaming, I think. I woke up for good I think somewhere around 5:10ish, finally giving up on the possibility of falling … Continue reading 2024-12-31 (Tuesday) — Clawing Back

(written on the 31st) Today was an absolutely devastating day. I returned to my old arrogant ways in my day trading, thinking that even though cognitively, I knew I was not properly prepared to train with big size yet, I just couldn't help myself getting in and sizing up. The results were absolutely devastating. I … Continue reading 2024-12-30 (Monday) — Biggest Loser

(written on the 31st) It's a little weird not trading. I miss it. 🙃 Had something odd happened last night before I went to bed. I started having another allergic reaction. It wasn't anywhere near as bad as the one that was sending me into anaphylactic shock when I was in Washington state back in … Continue reading 2024-12-28 (Saturday) — New Holland Down

So I mentioned on my post from the 23rd that I was surprised by the fees. Let's just say that the fees have been shocking this week. Christmas Eve morning, I managed to once again come to the end of the day up about $150. This time, though, it wasn't just a measly $11, which … Continue reading 2024-12-27 (Friday) — Up, But Lucky?

(mostly written on the 23rd, partially written on the 28th) I can't let myself celebrate too much because I'm still lacking significantly in my basic competency, but I've had two green trading days in a row. 🎉 I think I made $48 on Friday, for an overall $36 gain in my old trading account before … Continue reading 2024-12-23 (Monday) — Two In A Row

It's amazing how quickly time flies these days. Can't believe it's almost Christmas. 😶 Haven't spent Christmas in Arkansas for a few years, at least. In 2022, I was in New Zealand. I miss New Zealand. 🙃 Last year I was in Utah. I think I was in Arkansas for 2021, because I think I … Continue reading 2024-12-20 (Friday) — Want to Trade?