I guess I had better write something. It's Tuesday morning. I'm lying in bed. My back hurts. Nerves are on fire. After living with this for so long, it's hard to tell what's pain and what's burning and whatnot. Anyway... Sunday... Sunday was a heavy equipment day. I got all the dirt moved to where … Continue reading 2024-08-26 (Monday) — Reasonably Compensated

Uh... today... I listed my New Holland mini excavator for sale. I just made up a price because I have no idea what it's worth. I guess we'll see what kind of interest I garner. Went over to my mom's place again to sort of work through this whole reasonable compensation thing. So much effort. … Continue reading 2024-08-24 (Saturday) — Starlinked

(written on the 24th as though the 23rd) I was in such a bad space yesterday that I didn't mention several things about the day itself. I replaced the damaged zerks in my excavator and regreased the zerk fittings. I spent I don't even know how Long, possibly hours, just trying to find the year … Continue reading 2024-08-23 (Friday) — Headway… I Hope

It's been two months now that I've been living down by the creek. That's as long as I was in New Zealand. Crazy. Rough day. I think the truth of life is that no matter how bad things are, they can always get worse. All of my fears are coming true, some of them far … Continue reading 2024-08-22 (Thursday) — Two Months

(written on the 22nd as though the 21st) I woke up today at 7:00 something and actually got started with the day. I was a little more energetic wanting to get things done today. Lots of plans for things to accomplish. The day didn't quite go as hoped, But on the positive side, the last … Continue reading 2024-08-21 (Wednesday) — Duh 🙃

Just after midnight. Nothing really to say. Finished putting the cylinder back together on the skid steer. Only tested it for maybe 60 seconds. Wasn't immediately leaking. Accidentally overfilled the hydraulics, so going to have to drain some out I guess. Cut up the top of the tree that fell on Rover's parking space. Created … Continue reading 2024-08-20 (Tuesday) — Cylinder in, Seals… MIA

I don't know if I have it. I'm just exhausted. Life exhausted. Maybe the cycle actually does end here because there's just nothing left of me to really do anything other than just physically exist. I'm just... exhausted. Don't really have anything to say today. Another struggling, painful night. Spine and nerve issues, as always. … Continue reading 2024-08-19 (Monday) — Bushing Fix

It's coming up on 11:00... p.m... I've spent a pretty good chunk of the day today going back... back over old things that I've written... old conversations that I've had... old experiences that I felt like I had with God... I'm reminded of the cycle that I often have gone through over the last many … Continue reading 2024-08-18 (Sunday) — The Cycle

Loooong night. Tossed and turned. Pain and discomfort. The van was facing mostly the right way, but unfortunately, still on a bit of an angle. 😕 And for whatever reason, I woke up depressed and feeling like maybe I'd done something wrong? Bad hacker? Sorry. 😞 It was really weird to have my emotional state … Continue reading 2024-08-17 (Saturday) — Bedrock

Gosh, it just keeps coming. 😕 But I will get to that. Slept decently well last night. That was nice. I think the angle was slightly off on my bed, so there was a little bit of irritation in my back, but not too much. Woke up later started listening to rules for radicals again … Continue reading 2024-08-16 (Friday) — Happily Under Skilled