Holar, folks. 🙂 It's Memorial Day today, but I'm writing about my Saturday. I had a pretty weird experience Saturday morning. As I was driving from my house to the parts supplier, it was like my whole being had been reset. I wasn't stressed about all of the different areas in my life. When I … Continue reading 2023-05-27 — Reset?

So... I actually went out and fixed cars yesterday!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳 Can you believe it?!?!?! 🙃 It took 4 days of barely existing, and I'm not 100% sure why I woke up yesterday and was able to work. In the past, one day I'll just wake up and feel a bit more energetic and positive. I … Continue reading 2023-05-26 — Upward

Gosh, I'm so out of it and haven't written in so long that I forgot for a moment how I write these things. I guess it's been about a week since I wrote last. It's been a really rough week. One of my hardest, mental health wise. I've been barely functional as a human being, … Continue reading 2023-05-25 — Still Here

Sorry that I haven't been reliable in writing. I'm just not doing well at all. I just keep getting worse and worse mentally and emotionally. I can't really remember what's been going on. I've been trying to work less, but my stress level and discouragement and everything else isn't changing. I'm constantly in a state … Continue reading 2023-05-18 — Discouraged

Today was a bit of deja vu from my nightmare day yesterday. I spent part of the morning continuing to help with getting everything prepared so that Ms Karen from yesterday could get taken care of today. I went and picked up the CV axle bearing and intermediate shaft assembly from the O'Reilly's in Bentonville … Continue reading 2023-05-17 — Rest in Peace, John

Today was just hell, plain and simple. I spent something like 12 hours working on a 2014 Nissan Murano. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate Nissans? Good crap. Anyway, this lady had a leaking CV boot, and I went out there, and after looking at it, I recommended that you not do anything … Continue reading 2023-05-16 — Not My *Worst* Day As A Mechanic, But Close

Gosh, I just keep falling behind... It's the 18th as I write this. I think the 15th was a Monday. Yeah, Monday. I've continued trying to lighten things up because I've been close to the point of complete breakdown. I think it's helping, but I have almost no ability to withstand any adversity whatsoever with … Continue reading 2023-05-15 — A Monday

I'm pretty devastated. I relapsed in my porn addiction, and that hurts a lot. It felt like pretty much the only area of my life that I was making meaningful progress on. And now just doesn't feel like any progress at all. Just the same old stupid cycle. So yeah, I'm pretty devastated right now. … Continue reading 2023-05-14 — Mower Day

My plan was to take most of the day off. I had one job on the schedule. I've been just struggling and needing some breathing room, so I was going to take the day off and do just that one job. But then somebody called you needed help it was nearby that first job, so … Continue reading 2023-05-13 — Not A Quickie

Only did two cars today. I've been dragging so much lately. Just totally drained, overwhelmed, and burned out. I think I started out the day working on my aerial spider lift. Trying to figure out what was going on with it, working back and forth with the heavy equipment mechanic online trying to diagnose it. … Continue reading 2023-05-12 — Another Glio