Whoops... forgot to publish this... ... Keep almost forgetting to write. Get tired. About to lie down. Then... "oh yeah, crap, haven't written yet." Took it easy today. Work has seemed so pointless lately. Earning money for what? So... I haven't worked as much. Been harder because of that. Good to take it easy. I … Continue reading 2022-06-04 — Trying

I'm tired, y'all. I don't mean that physically. I mean, yes, I'm physically tired, but I'm getting worse and worse emotionally. Had a bit of a breakdown today. And I'm tired of writing that in this journal, a daily reminder for me of how messed up I am right now, and a daily embarrassment of … Continue reading 2022-06-03 — Breakdown

It's... been an interesting day. Woke up late after being up crazy late. I did four cars, but I spent a lot longer than what the four cars should have taken. Two days in a row like that. It was an interesting day, though. After replacing the starter in a 2008 Honda Accord, I was … Continue reading 2022-06-02 — Ups and Downs

Really rough day, all the way around. I tried stock trading again and lost big again. Quit again. Hardest part is knowing I can do it, that I know strategies that'll work, but I can't discipline myself to trade according to my plans. That's... pretty devastating... and one more thing I'm a mess. And every … Continue reading 2022-06-01 — (sigh… x10)

I'm way late... I couldn't fall asleep last night to save my life. I guess even though I was short on sleep, the nap I took during the day just killed me. That's how it works with me, has my whole life, but I thought that it would be different last night because I was … Continue reading 2022-05-31 — On To The Next

Hiya, folks! 🙂 Been a relatively leisurely day today. I got up at... I don't remember... maybe 7 something? Gosh, my memory is failing me. I can't remember what I did this morning. 🙃 Whatever I did, I left for work a little early (about 9:30) because I had someone stranded at Walmart down in … Continue reading 2022-05-30 — Positive Progress on Day 2

Hiya, folks! 🙂 So it's been a successful first day. 🙂 Though i was up late, I got up at 9 something, which was better than I'd guessed given the hour I finally got to bed. Tonight I'm better positioned for a great start Monday, as it's 11:35 right now, and I should be in … Continue reading 2022-05-29 — Successful First Day

(last updated 2022-05-29) And thus it begins! There's definitely been a bit of fear creeping in at the thought of finally... doing this. But I'm not going to let that fear get in the way anymore. Nope. Time to move forward and do this. So, as promised, here's draft one of the plan (and, by … Continue reading The Great Transition

Okay, folks, it's time to get serious and get moving with this... change the world stuff. I'm going to create a timeline of transition with quantifiable markers. Otherwise, fear is going to win, and I, and all the people I hope to bless in my efforts, will lose, and I'll just keep fixing cars and … Continue reading 2022-05-28 — Exit and Transition Strategies

Well, I did it: I stayed up all night, so I'm rather exhausted right now. It's 8:30, and I'll be in bed shortly. Cross your fingers that I'll be able to get my rhythm back to good soon. Four... wait... five? cars today. Finally back to work. First car was... what was it. First car … Continue reading 2022-05-27 — Zzzzz