No excuses. Here we go: Up at 5, check (getting up in the dark is hard 😶. Yes, I'm spoiled--being able to get up whenever I want. And in my spoiledness, getting back on this morning routine is a challenge 🙃). 5x5, check (progress today cleaning my room (after only a few days of 5x5s, … Continue reading 2021-10-26 — Ongoing Progress

No excuses. Up at 5, Check. Exercise (pretty measley, but...), check. 5x5, check. Meditation, check. Worked on non profit (measley, but... check). Worked on taxes (not amazing, but ok), check. Stopped working and ate lunch, check. No new cars are 6, check! Ate dinner, check! Three cars today: 2006 Jeep Liberty, finished upper and lower … Continue reading 2021-10-25 — Day 2 Report

No excuses. 1:42 -- Every screen I could find in my room that could access the internet or a movie or whatever has been moved out of my room. There's one laptop I can't find. I need to, but it's not showing itself. I don't remember where I put it, so... that one's still out … Continue reading 2021-10-24 — Daily Accountability

One of you reminded me to, when I'm struggling, re-read what I wrote about who I say I want to become, the person I want to be, what I want to accomplish. I've been... treading water in some ways, while still moving forward in others. But even in the moving forward I have been doing, … Continue reading 2021-10-24 — Life Makeover

Nice to be back at Sunday. 😊 Rest, my boy, rest. It's been a different week, finding me not feeling well, fighting being over the edge, struggling to get back into the swing of work after taking so much time off to try and get taxes done (which still need to get done), and not … Continue reading 2021-10-23 — Mmmm… Sunday. 🙃

Another day. Three cars. Been taking it easier. But not getting to bed. Slept 12 hours, but right back at wasting time and going to bed way too late. Way behind with jobs. Lots waiting on me. Struggling. Discouraged. All the way around. How long will I continue to choose this life that I hate … Continue reading 2021-10-22 — Meh

So tired. Falling asleep. One, long sideways job today, but it's done. Must sleep. Gnight! ~ stephen

I'm discouraged today, folks. Really hard to be positive. I want to make a difference for good in this world, but it's hard to feel like I can, honestly. I'm watching what's unfolding everywhere in our country, and I'm just... 😕. I'm sad and discouraged. I don't want to be, but I'm struggling so much … Continue reading 2021-10-21 — Discouraged Rant

Well... my bed time is getting worse... not better. 🙃 Was after 4 last night and it's almost 3:30 already. Did better today physically, though. Go figure. 4 hours of sleep but much better in the over-the-edge stuff? 🤷‍♀️ Long day. But still better? Weird. Just weird. Six cars, five paying. First car was a … Continue reading 2021-10-20 — A Bit Off Track

I'm all over the place--except in bed, which is where I need to be. 🙃 I haven't been able to get back in the working groove, partly because my body, which was totally fine with me working 90 hours a week for weeks on end while working on cars, hasn't been able to handle me … Continue reading 2021-10-19 — Edge Staying Close