Shortly after writing my blog post last night, a bomb sort of dropped when I received a message from a dear friend, and I ended up being up late and fighting off the anxiety that I'd done so well at battling the last couple of days. I'm proud of myself, though. I think I handled … Continue reading 2021-05-31 — Bombed But Finding Shelter

It's been a lovely Sabbath day today. 😊 I slept in quite a bit, but I had a great conversation with Big Daddy this morning. I had a good conversation with my friend Brittani today. I had a good time at church today; and I had a good time wandering the trails today--among other things. … Continue reading 2021-05-30 — Light and Happy. 😊

Officially open for enjoyment. 😊 I spent a few hours or so today working on the trails, and though they are not done by any means, they are officially open for use and enjoyment, and I'm... excited. 😊 It was only a week or so ago that I was feeling really discouraged about the trails, … Continue reading 2021-05-29 — Usable, Enjoyable 😊

Hey, folks! Guess what? It's been another really hard, long, draining, day today. But guess what?!?! I handled it... really well, I think. Well, at least a lot better than I usually do. It's hard for me to fast a normal fast. I've been doing lots of praying. And a dear friend of mine who's … Continue reading 2021-05-28 — Digging Deep

Hi, folks, It's late. I'm tired. It's been another really tough day. I'm worn out. Emotionally exhausted. Didn't really get anything of anything done today. Hope your hearts are lighter than mine. I'm breaking. Maybe I'll come back together stronger. I hope. Lift the World. ~ stephen  

Hey, y'all. Been a really rough day today. Struggling... massively. Had a whole lot of really hard things all converge at once today, and... I... feel buried under a mountain. No way out but through, and tomorrow's another day. Didn't do any cars today. Spent the first half of the day struggling with some personal … Continue reading 2021-05-26 — Piling On

Happy Tuesday, y'all. 🙂 No fear, no excuses. (not that I'm living in that, but I'm working on it) I ended up sleeping in today. I was just hammered. Wouldn't have even gotten four hours of sleep if I got up at 4:25, but I will tomorrow morning. 4:25. It's almost 10:15 right now, though, … Continue reading 2021-05-25 — A Few Little Things

Hiya, folks. Hit a bump in the road today. I was doing so well with my porn stuff. I was reaching out with the slightest triggers. I was doing pushups, or sprinting around, or taking a cold shower when I was triggered, so that I could get by body to send its energy elsewhere. I … Continue reading 2021-05-24 — Bump

So.... I think maybe things are coming together a little? We'll see. July 4th is less than a month and a half away. That was my tentative retirement date, and I've made a tentative decision: As soon as all my legal stuff is taken care of with the business, and everything is organized and solid, … Continue reading 2021-05-23 — Coming Together?

Hola folks! Didn't get to bed until after 12:30 a.m., so it wasn't even 4 hours of sleep by 4:25, but guess what? I still got up!!! Wahoo! 🙂 I think that's 6 days in a row now? Yee haw!!! (nevermind that I went back to bed at 7 ish and slept until 10ish) I … Continue reading 2021-05-22 — Gotta Go. Trigger!!!