I'm exhausted. Glad it's time to sleep. Glad it's Sunday tomorrow. #1. I'm grateful I got the fuel pump/tank/lines job done finally. #2. I'm glad the job from yesterday I had to go back to today was a super easy fix. #3. I'm grateful my mom sent me out with food this morning. Saved my … Continue reading 2021-01-23 — Crashing

Relapsed. Another nightmare day. Not sure how it's possible to have so many things go sideways in a week. It's just... it's literally like the universe has planned it. I'm just at a loss and crumbled in little pieces. I feel like I've reverted to the person I was at the beginning of last year... … Continue reading 2021-01-22 — 🙁

Things might be changing faster than I'd thought. I let David go today. 😕 I just... my standards for work are just higher than what he does. I feel like he's a good, honest guy, but what he thinks is good work and what I think is good work... it's just... we're not compatible. I'm … Continue reading 2021-01-21 — The Winds of Change

Hey, folks, Ditto, repeat, clone, reprise, duplicated... whatever you want to call it. Today was yesterday... mostly. It took me 5 1/2 hours of madness (everything going wrong that could go wrong) today before I finally just broke down again, not as badly as yesterday, but it... ugh. Eight hours after I started working on … Continue reading 2021-01-20 — Come in Pairs

Today has been a nightmare. Knee still screwed up (didn't mention that yesterday... swelled up again for no reason). David didn't get any cars done today even after working all day. I didn't either. One mess after another after another after another after another. I blew my top and had a complete meltdown late afternoon. … Continue reading 2021-01-19 — Nightmare

Today was a bit of a nuthouse, but every day is a good day. It's just good in different ways. 🙃 The best part of the day for me? Probably the 30 minutes I chose to take, time I didn't really actually have, to go out to the woods this morning before leaving for my … Continue reading 2021-01-18 — At Least I Got the Trees

Happy Sunday. 😊 Hope y'all have had a beautiful day. 😊 I slept in today, studied a bit, got caught a little sideways with a conference talk I listened to about families (teared up a little bit and felt lonely for a little while, but not too long), had three meetings today (elder's quorum, sacrament, … Continue reading 2021-01-17 — Ever Forward

Hola, Peeps. 😊 Happy Saturday! 😊 How about a gratitude day. Haven't had one of those since... Thanksgiving week? #1. I'm grateful that I slept well last night. No headache! 🥳 #2. I'm grateful that I've been pretty much 100% today (health wise). It's been sooooooo nice! #3. I'm grateful that I feel like I … Continue reading 2021-01-16 — Time to Rest

Hi, folks. 😊 It was a rough day yesterday, and it was a rough night. I went to bed about 9, and then I woke up at 11 with my head hurting quite a bit. I tried to take a blood sugar reading. Seemed high, but my test strips are expired, my control solution is … Continue reading 2021-01-15 — Trying to Pull Out

Amnesia. I seem to get amnesia quite quickly. I forget so easily what it feels like to go over the edge and crash on the rocky shore below. I prioritize happy customers over my health, and then... I crash. It's been a good day today, but I've definitely been paying for neglecting my body. I've … Continue reading 2021-01-14 — How Do I Forget?