2020-04-29 — Ready For A Breather

I think I only have like 5 or 6 cars scheduled for tomorrow.

To be honest, I haven’t figured out the schedule yet, so I’m not really sure, but I’m ready for a breather. I’m a little afraid to even look.

On a stats geek note, we have now officially broken the record for number of cars done in a month. We’re at 112 after today, I think, with one more day in the month to go. The record-breaking part of me wants to shoot for 120, but the tired, exhausted, and a little bit depressed today for some reason, so I’m not all that amped up to go hit the road and finish the month off strong.

It’ll still happen, though.

Cross your fingers that I’ll find another tech to hire, so I can keep all the business that comes in and still work fewer hours.

Things are going to change a bit starting next week anyway. My tech is going to go down to working for me four days a week instead of six. He’ll be taking Thursdays and Fridays off. That’ll hit hard, but it is what it is. I’ll deal. I always do.

It’s been a good day today, as always. I had the normal issues with cars giving me grief, but nothing totally crazy, just the normal junk you have to deal with–X think breaking and adding an hour to the job, and it’s nobody’s fault, so… you just deal and move on.

We did seven cars today I think. Well… 8, but I didn’t charge for one, so I didn’t count it among the repaired cars.

I did three, plus the freebie, and my tech did the other four.

One super good thing about today was that I was able to get that pesky autobiographical sketch ironed out. I’ll probably go back to it (I’ll probably go back to all of them, to edit, add pictures, fill in gaps, etc, but for now, it’s up and posted and ready to read for any who might want to).

I was having a pretty decent day, and then I dropped my brand new phone that I was still testing so I hadn’t bought a protective case for it yet. Well… it’s screen didn’t survive.

Two days. I made it two days and was finally hopeful that I had found a phone that was going to actually have the reception I needed to run my business, and now… busted screen. It’s still usable, but I hate the cracks across the screens.

Somehow, and it’s just dumb, it threw me into a depressive funk. I was fine all day until that. I don’t know if it hit me hard because I’m all screwed up from not having taken very god care of myself food and liquids wise, or what, but it threw me into a funk.

I’m gonna try and reframe it though, so that when I look at the screen, I don’t see a crack and disappointment… I’m gonna think of something so that it’s positive when I look at the screen and see the cracks there.

Well, speaking of being positive… on to gratitude!

#1. I’m grateful that we had another really good money day. I’ve made more in the last three days than I used to make in a week and a half at my last job, and that was a well-paying job. It’s been really good, money wise lately. The quicker I can save up, the quicker I can expand my investments and be better prepared for the things I really want to do… unless I do what I was saying before and just… let go and go for them anyway, saying to heck with financial security. It’s really nice to have good income, though. Blessing.

#2. I’m grateful to have finally gotten done with that autobiographical sketch. It’s just a shell of what it could be, as all the details are left out, but there’s hopefully enough there to give at least a basic idea of the impact some of my life’s events have had on me.

#3. I’m grateful to still be okay physically, at least at the moment. I need to eat and drink more. I’m definitely on the edge, but I’m still going. I’m gonna have a good bit more to eat and drink before I go to bed, and I’ve finally gotten my water bottle laid out and full for tomorrow’s day.

#4. I’m grateful to have connected with someone from many years ago. I had a pretty good-sized crush on her probably what… 15 years ago? I don’t know that it will go anywhere. I haven’t pursued anything in that direction (romantic), but the thought is certainly there. I don’t know if any LDS women would have me at this point, though. I’m basically in crisis, and though my heart is still the same, I’m not an active member of the church, so… yeah. There’s that. I just want someone who’s honest in heart an wants to spend their life helping people. If there’s a god, he’ll know I’m doing my best, and any god worth paying respects to is one who will not punish people for giving their best and coming up short. I’m doing my best, trying to figure things out. My heart is honest. I’m not part of the church right now because I gave everything, and it all fell apart, and now I don’t know what to trust, so I’m starting all over. I may go back. There’s probably a pretty good chance, or I may stay away (probably less likely), but I’m trying. That’s the key in my book.

#5. I’m grateful for spring weather. It was beautiful today. Great temperature. Mix of clouds and wind and sun. Lovely.

Well, my peeps. It’s 10:43, and I still need to figure out the schedule for tomorrow, give some quotes, eat, and get my rear in bed. Thanks, for reading.

Oh, and add another day to my tallies.

Ugh… but still a big goose egg on the exercise.

Lift the World.

~ stephen