2020-04-30 — Home All Day in My Recliner

Hey, y’all.

Today has been one of those days where, from the start, I’ve just been off, I think. I accidentally published nearly four pages worth of autobiographical sketch that was supposed to have been deleted. Not that it was bad to be out there, but it seemed a little too detailed for the privacy I’m trying to maintain for the other people who’ve been a part of my life. So… if you managed to be among the few who saw all that before one of my readers let me know that something didn’t seem right with the post, then… you got an extra glimpse.

Anyway, yeah… I’ve been off today. I could have had jobs to do, but I just couldn’t get myself to do them. I was tired. Beyond burned out. I only sent my mechanic to two jobs today, and I think he was happy to have some extra time off as well. I’m still not even prepared for tomorrow. I worked this morning doing secretarial things and whatnot, getting back to customers and all that, keeping my tech going with everything he needed, but I pretty much spent my entire day in my recliner in my room, falling back a bit into escape mode… watching like 10 episodes of Chuck.

It was one of those days that you’ve basically taken the day off but don’t really enjoy it because you know you’re avoiding life, and you know you should be doing other things… yeah… one of those days.

The only thing I really accomplished besides making sure my tech was taken care of was getting my battery tester fixed. The last time I tried to use it, it didn’t work right, and I discovered that the wires had been tugged on hard enough to have finally broken, so I soldered them back together, and now it works great again.

Wahoo.

So… yeah… nothing really to say about today. I did manage to rough out and publish the next autobiographical sketch. I don’t know how good it is because my brain is foggy, and I didn’t spend a lot of time on it or go back over it like I know I should. Honestly, I just wanted to get it done and up there, and to heck with the quality, I’ll go fix it later.

That was basically my attitude.

Anyway, I haven’t been getting much sleep lately. Late nights, and I’m such a light sleeper that I wake up with the sunlight in my room, and man the sun comes up early this time of year!

Probably need to get my gratitude on… one of those days… It’ll be good for me.

#1. I’m grateful that it wasn’t such a crazy day today that I couldn’t just take it off for the most part, scheduling things for tomorrow instead of today, and referring the customers who wanted help today to other mechanics.

So I lost business. So what. I needed a break today

#2. I’m grateful that even though I stayed home all day, I still made a couple bucks from the work my tech did. That’s something, at least.

#3. I’m grateful that I’ve been able keep this journal going every day for over a month now and that despite my periodic craving for sweets and sex, I’m doing just fine. Still on target. To be honest, I’m a bit concerned about the “night thing” (I think I mentioned that in one of my previous sketches. You can probably use the search tool on my blog to find it if you don’t know what I’m referring to). Historically, I have’t been able to keep those from happening, and then I feel dirty, and then I relapse. So… I’m a tad concerned about that, but… well… I have y’all now, so maybe this time when the night thing rears its ugly head, maybe this time I will be able to not let it get to me so much.

#4. I’m grateful to have food and shelter and comfort and relative stability in a world that’s still rather upended right now.

#5. I’m grateful that I only have one more sketch to write before I’m done with my first pass and can start going back through to “edit my drafts,” so to speak. That’s going to be soooooooo nice! I mean, obviously, even though each one will have been published, I still have a long way to go before each is finished, but it’s progress.

Well, folks, it must have bee hotter outside today because I’m sitting here sweating in my recliner. Time to crawl into bed, turn on my fan, and get my z’s on.

Good night, folks.

Lift the World.

~ s