2020-06-05 — Like An Addiction

It’s so hard. Why can’t I say no? Why can’t I just relax and take some time off? Why do I feel like Have to say yes to every opportunity that comes up. I’m not convinced, like I wrote yesterday or whenever, that it’s because I’m achieving my financial goals, etc. I think there might be something additional/more/different.

Part of me wants to ponder that right now, but I’m so tired I’ll probably just fall asleep. I’m falling asleep now, and it’s 1:58 a.m. But… I’ll try…

Whoops. Now it’s 2:14.

I guess I was right. I fell asleep.

Soooo… tired. I finished I think somewhere around 11:30 p.m., but then I had another mobile mechanic company call and ask for help, so I went to help him and didn’t get home until around 1, 1:30 ish, I think.

I’m totally hammered. Been the whole week like this, I think. Not really any sense in writing about it. It’s the same as yesterday. Something is broken inside my brain, I think, so I just keep working. I keep saying yes to more people–two more today who were stranded when I was already booked solid.

Same stuff, different day. Two jobs that took way longer than they should. Three quickies, and then the rescue of the other mobile mechanic company.

#1. I’m grateful that I was able to get the Mitsubishi starter out without having to take off the exhaust and catalytic converter. Service instructions and other resources tell you to take off the exhaust, but one of the bolt was so rusted it was about ready to break, so I stopped abruptly and looked for another way, and I found one.

#2. I’m grateful that I was able to diagnose the Fusion overheat issue fairly quickly. That was good. I never should have accepted the job. I was swamped, but she was stranded (at the time), and I offered to at least check quickly to see if it was something I could pinpoint super quickly for her, and it was which was great.

#3. I’m grateful for my forgiving body. I’m trying to stay on top of its needs, but this is the hardest season. It was super hot. I probably drank a couple two+ gallons of water, but it still wasn’t enough. I’m catching up just enough when I get home to stave off crashing. I’m hoping the same happens tonight.

#4. I’m grateful that business is going to well–crazy busy.

#5. I’m grateful to have remembered to charge my ratchet battery and scantool.

There’s so much more to say about today–the most important things still unsaid, probably. But I’m so hammered I just can’t…

Good night, folks. Loves and hugs to all of you.

Lift the World.

~ stephen