Well, folks, I’m super tired. It’s only 10:28, but I was driving for several hours yesterday, up late talking to a friend, and then up two hours earlier than normal to keep my business going with the issues with time zone differences–being on Pacific Time now.
So… yeah… I’m tired.
I did some grocery shopping in Yakima, which was good, as prices are so much cheaper over there than they are in Seattle.
I chatted with a friend of mine for most of the drive in, which made the drive go by so much faster. So nice.
Man… I’m tired.
It’s been a tough day in some regards. Lots of talk about the selling of the grandparents’ house here. I got super mad at my mom. Yelled at my mom for the first time since I was… maybe a teenager. It was ugly. 🙁 Angry, loud… ugly. Enough that I actually scared her. 🙁
The last 24 hours has seen me at… much less than my best, unfortunately. I don’t want to jinx myself, but it’s hard to imagine me having a worse next 24 hours. Fortunately, the last three or so have been much better.
My mom is an angel, and she forgave me. My friend Brittani, who had to deal with me last night and today is also an angel, and she forgave me as well.
It’s been a hard day. But… I’ve learned some things, and that’s something.
#1. I’m grateful that my little car made it another 800+ miles without a hiccup.
#2. I’m grateful that I have a bed to sleep in tonight. (not that I haven’t had a bed available to me before, but I just… being in my car is so “home.” It’s comfortable in its discomfort.
#3. I’m grateful for relatively decent prices on food in Yakima.
#4. I’m grateful that I don’t care so much about finding the cheapest gas prices like I used to. I did get hammered pretty good today, but I don’t care like I used to. It’s nice to let go of that. Just a few dollars difference. Not something to stress so much over like I used to.
#5. I’m grateful that just adding power steering fluid to my car seemed to make the noise go away, so… hopefully, there is no lasting damage to the pump. That would be nice. Cross your fingers. It’s an ugly little thing, but it’s got AC, and it’s getting me where I want to go. Grateful.
To be better…
#1. Ugh… I feel like I need to be better at just about everything today. Seek to understand instead of assume I know.
#2. More patient with others.
Well, my lovelies. Sorry, it’s a boring one. I’m crashing. Need sleep. Good night. Loves and hugs.
Lift the World.
~ stephen
Lift the World 
Oh, Stephen, I’m sorry about your tough day. Anger is a difficult monster to overcome. We’re all doing the best we can with the information we have and the histories of our lives, and with one life never being the same as another, we can’t ever know the hows and whys behind the actions of others. We can only respect that they’re doing the best they can. That goes for ourselves, too. Every day make your best a little better. That’s all we can do.
Thanks, Tish! Hope to see you soon!!!