Hey y’all, happy Wednesday.
I’m kind of happy that it’s Wednesday, and that I’ll be taking tomorrow “off.” So nice. Soooooo nice.
I was feeling pretty low still this morning. I didn’t get up at 5:30. I’d had the night thing happen last night a little bit in the middle of the night. That woke me up all the way, and then I had a conversation with a friend of mine who was still up and having a rough night. We talked for a while, and after going to bed too late and then being up in the middle of the night, I didn’t have the discipline to get up at 5:30, so I slept in until just before 7:30.
I didn’t get hardly any of my regular dailies done, but I did have a super good gospel conversation with that same friend of mine that had been having a hard time. We were both having a hard time this morning, but the conversation was mutually uplifting–significantly. It was… great. I wish I could have those conversations like that one every day. I felt like I got some good insights and inspiration.
It was having such a beautiful experience earlier this morning that made my afternoon so much worse. After a beautiful, spiritual morning, I relapsed again in the afternoon.
I was devastated and discouraged. I was struggling badly, afraid I’m gonna be right back where I’ve been for so long–make it a few days, a few weeks, maybe even a few months, only to relapse again. 34 years of this stuff. I’m 38. Not very hopeful math.
Anyway, so I was super down for a while, and then… I don’t know what happened, but I stopped being down. I was almost pretty much normal, and I’m doing well right now, fortunately.
Cross your fingers, maybe I’ll pull out of this one without any more discouragement. 😊
I’m gonna jump to gratitude again. That’s a good place to be.
#1. I’m grateful that I’ve moved from being discouraged to being much more positive.
#2. I’m grateful for the wonderful conversation I had this morning.
#3. I’m grateful for the insights I had this morning, different ways at looking at how God works with us, with me. One of these days when I actually get to bed near on time, I’ll share what I’ve been learning.
#4. I’m grateful that I was able to find a way to repair the fuel tank vent valve that I accidentally broke, not realizing there was still a line connected when I was lowering the fuel tank because the line was hidden up in a little tunnel. I don’t remember ever running into anything like that before.
#5. I’m grateful the fuel pump that I’ve been carrying around with me forever–two years, I think, will finally get to be refunded. It was listed as the right pump for the car, and… it’s not. Which means… I get to finally take it back and get a refund for it. Wahoo!
#6. I’m grateful to have a day off tomorrow.
#7. I’m grateful that summer appears to be easing off. The 10-day forecast is a lot more friendly, and I’m looking forward to that. Fall and spring. That’s the sweet spot for outside work here. Winter isn’t terrible, but it can be super cold and hard to work sometimes. Still… grateful the heat is dying down.
#8. I’m grateful that I felt like I might have gotten a little bit of direction on where to go next, well, one avenue anyway. There’s a book I’ve wanted to write for a long time, and it feels like maybe it’s the right time now. So… I’m gonna give it a whirl.
To be better…
All right, folks. I’m sorry, I’ve been boring for a while. I really am gonna get better at writing more useful things. Just… not quite everything together yet.
Lift the World.
~ stephen
Lift the World 