Been a long day. Nightmare last night. Probably because I ate too much before bed, and that’s… one of the most common causes of nightmares, so… yeah.
Woke up at 2 a.m. Couldn’t fall back asleep, then finally did who knows when, and slept until 7. So… that wasn’t 4:25, but it’s better than 8 or 8:30.
Took a while to get organized for the day and get out the door. Did four cars today. I was proud of myself because I had chosen to stop at the 4th car, when I very easily could have done as many more as I wanted, and so I was going to get home at a good hour, and then… it all fell apart. And i didn’t even get away from that car until 8:30, I think.
Ugh.
At least I tried.
That’s kind of what I feel like my life has been. Y’all now I’ve been really discouraged feeling like my life is a failure. I guess the thing that’s true is I’ve sincerely tried to do what’s best, and it just… hasn’t turned out anything like I’d hoped. So… at least I’ve tried. I have that to hang my hat on, so to speak.
It’s been a bit rough today. Rough with cars. Discouraged with life. Hard to fight off the feelings that it’s gonna be a long long long long long long time before I can overcome just stupid little issues like getting made at cars
Anyway, it’s time to sign off here. I still have something important to do, so I’m not sure how much longer I’ll be up. Hopefully, I’ll be okay.
#1. I’m grateful to at least have made the choice to limit my cars, even if that last car that was supposed to be simple turned into a beast.
#2. I’m grateful that I have support people to encourage me through hard times.
#3. I’m grateful it wasn’t rainy today.
#4. I’m grateful for god food to eat. Lucky. Very lucky.
#5. I’m grateful that I had very happy customers today.
#6. I’m grateful that my nephew’s truck turned out to not have the massive rod knock that the recording he sent seemed to indicate it had. I stopped by, and it was crazy low on oil. Still might have issues, but just adding oil got rid of a lot of the sound.
So… time to say goodnight.
Good night, world. 🙂
Lift the World
~ stephen
Lift the World 
Sending love, Stephen… And hugs… And whatever encouragement I can…
Thx, hansandheather! 😊
Oh, Stephen, Life is a success by living it. Learning it. Helping when you can. If you can’t help, at least doing no harm. That’s a low bar for success, but it’s a true one, none-the-less. Love is success. Gratitude is success. Each breath in the moment is what life is about. Erase the story you wrote in your head. That story cheats you of so much happiness! Erase expectation and live each precious moment. You are infinite possibility. So you aren’t following one of those possibilities? Why choose to name that failure?
Hugs, my brother.
Tish
Yes, Tish! Yay!!
This is beautiful. Thanks, Tish. 😊
Everyday, is a new day, to be better to try to be better. Remember to smile 😊
And I read something that made me think of you
” Someone out there feels better because you exist”. Remember that 😊
Thanks, Blogreader! 😊
Well said Tish and blogreader. I love it, life is a success by living it. This means so much to me, since I have a brother who killed himself.
Oh, CPMINSON, my heart goes out to you and your family. Suicide brings so much more pain to the table of loss. I heard an interview on NPR with a woman whose husband died at 34 years old. She received condolences from another widow which said, “We have a sacred responsibility to live life to the fullest. But it’s a b****.” Big hugs.