2021-05-19 — X3, + *Another* Reconnection

No, I haven’t been watching the X-Men trilogy (or however many mutant movies there are).

Three days in a row!!! Boom!!! Wahoo! 🥳🙂

Honestly, it was harder this morning. For a little bit, I was like, ugh, do I have to do this again?

It’s gonna be a lot easier once I get myself better situated with the night time part of the routine. Right now we’re sort of in a halfway point, I guess. I’m getting up at goal time, and I’m doing most of my morning routine, and then I’m crashing about 6:30 or 7 and going back to bed for a long nap.

But I’m getting up! And I’m doing my most important dailies! And that feels great!

So, yeah. There’s that. 🙂

It’s been a really good really hard day today. I spent most of the day in conversation with a friend trying to work through some really hard things–taking turns being up and down, the one helping the other. It was really hard, but it was really cool. I’m grateful for wonderful people in my life.

I actually didn’t go out and work on any cars today. I though I would, but… I didn’t. I sent people elsewhere, and I postponed what I had, and it’s just… I’m taking an impromptu series of days quasi off. That said, there’s so much emotional energy being expended as I try to work through things from my past and present that days off aren’t days off. They’re just as exhausting, just in different ways.

Oh! Guess what?!?! I forgot to mention! Yesterday? Day before? I had another really good friend who I hadn’t talked to in years message me out of the blue! It was super cool. That’s the… third person in the last year that’s from years ago in my past. It’s… crazy. 🙂 And it’s really cool. 🙂 She was my best friend during a period when I was living in Provo and going through some pretty hard things, and we did everything together for a while, and it was just… awesome. She’s one of the best people ever, and we haven’t been in contact for years, and she’s married with kids now and very happy, and she sent me a message of support and encouragement as I’m going this super hard time of my life.

So cool. 🙂 Thanks, Lindy! Thank you, so so so so much! 🙂 Hopefully, she will feel comfortable reaching out periodically. I was really grateful for her message. It meant a lot.

And I have another friend who’s had a really really really hard day. Super low lows. Fighting through that to get to a really really good place, only to get hammered again sideways style from the Big Meanie, and hopefully, peace is returning. Prayers/positive universe vibes her way, por favor. Much grass. Much grass.

I’m late to bed, so x4 tomorrow is likely gonna also include another long nap, as Ill be up in about 5 hours, so it’ll be fewer than 5 hours sleep by the time I actually fall asleep, but I’m grateful.

#1. I’m grateful to have had the strength to help those struggling when they needed lifting and to be lifted in kind.

#2. I’m grateful for the beautiful rain today. It was lovely.

#3. I’m grateful for air conditioning. We haven’t had it on all spring, think, and it was only low 70s inside the house, but it was muggy, so I kicked on the AC to dry the air out. So nice to have AC.

#4. I’m grateful to have made some good progress on my business property taxes assessment. I’m… either a quarter or a third of the way done with the final step? Probably… 5 more hours worth of work? I ain’t gonna say nothin’ negative about it. It is what it is, and there’s light at the end of the tunnel. Wahoo! 🥳

#5. I’m grateful now as much as ever for the fan I have that blows me cool while I sleep, helping to keep electricity costs down as it warms up.

Loves and hugs to all y’all. 🙂

Lift the World.

~ stephen