Day started off early and triggery... My brain woke up around 6:30, far before I wanted to get up, and it was just one triggering thought after another--an absolute onslaught that lasted for like... two hours--trying to sleep while simultaneously trying to beat out the thoughts. And the day was filled with triggers, right, left, … Continue reading 2021-06-09 — Muchos Triggeros

Hola, mon peeps! Happy Tuesday. 😊 I'm running late to bed today, yet again, for lots of reasons... Took forever to find the fire extinguishers I want for my skid steer and mini excavator, but I wanted to buy them ASAP because I've tentatively got my first customer next weekish (heavy-equipment rental), and I want … Continue reading 2021-06-08 — Nothing Major

Migraine today, much of the day. After doing a little reading, I'm wondering... could it be possible that all of my "edge" issues (meaning the symptoms I feel which include some or all of the following: exhaustion, unable to think, labored speech, headache, nausea, slap happiness , dry mouth/frequent urination [that last one only after … Continue reading 2021-06-07 — This is My Perfect Migraine 🙃

I tried to be prepared for today. I think I was as prepared as I personally was able to be. And... I'm proud of myself today, if that's not too bad to say. That said, it's still been one of the hardest days of my life, and that's not hyperbole. Lots of tears. Lots of … Continue reading 2021-06-06 — This is My Perfect Moment

So... I did a long work day. A looooong workday. Probably not the best idea. I sort of justified it because I haven't worked on cars much at all lately, so there's been a lot of outgo on the money front, nothing on the income, and lots and lots of people just waiting and waiting … Continue reading 2021-06-05 — Muchos Carros

How am I feeling...? let me take stock for a moment... I'm... hmmm... the overriding feeling at the moment is a belly stuffed too full too close to bed. 😬 And the thought that comes immediately to mind is how grateful I am that I live in a place and have the resources to have … Continue reading 2021-06-04 — Back to Work

Hey, folks, I'm having trouble getting my brain going to say anything at all right now. 🤪 I got plenty of sleep (though my internal clock is completely messed up). I'm close to being on time to go to bed right now, but I've not even been up for 12 hours, I don't think, so … Continue reading 2021-06-03 — Skid No No

It's been... a really good day today. 🙂 Well, of course it has... every day is a good day: it's just good in different ways. 🙃 So I guess I'd say, today was the happy, lighter type of good day. 😊 I'm grateful for that. I still feel like something outside of myself is probably … Continue reading 2021-06-02 — My Dear Tractor

Hola, y buenas noches! 😊 Happy Tuesday to you. 🙂 I've been reminded today just how much my mental health depends on my willingness to focus on the positive instead dwell on the negative. Yes, it's true, that some of the deepest desires of my heart have have already been lost. The hope for others … Continue reading 2021-06-01 — Bed Ready

Shortly after writing my blog post last night, a bomb sort of dropped when I received a message from a dear friend, and I ended up being up late and fighting off the anxiety that I'd done so well at battling the last couple of days. I'm proud of myself, though. I think I handled … Continue reading 2021-05-31 — Bombed But Finding Shelter