I don't want to write my story right now. I don't want people to read. I don't want comments. I'm embarrassed. I'm tired. I'm still avoiding facing what I need to face. I'm pretty broken. Very close to giving up on the course I've followed for well over a decade. But I'm still me. I … Continue reading 2021-07-09 — Alive

Another day. Three cars, plus one. No start... Tahoe... needed a battery. Then a 2015 Ram 1500 with drivability issues. Had transmission codes. Probably gonna need a full rebuild. Not so good. While I was at AutoZone, a young woman came in trying to borrow tools to change her battery. She has an interlock to … Continue reading 2021-07-08 — Walking Space

I think I'm sort of on automatic right now. Just... doing life but not living? Work. To-do stuff. Eat. Sleep. Repeat. 4 cars today. 2013 Corolla, overheat. Had a fan that was going bad, and a piece of the radiator crumbled, which made things... interesting. Then an '84 Wrangler that wouldn't start. Was grateful I'd … Continue reading 2021-07-07 — Automatic

Not much to report. Fixed my mom's AC. Looked at my niece's flat tire but couldn't find any evidence of leak. Fixed two cars with shift cable issues (2010 Trailblazer with a busted bushing and a 2003 Impreza with a bolt that had fallen out). Fixed the tractor. Tired. Just sort of... existing right now. … Continue reading 2021-07-05 — Meh

I'm... spiraling. But it's not from a relapse. I'm just... losing faith in everything I've trusted. Again. I'm almost all the way back to where I was last winter, well Winter 2019/2020, I mean... before I started to get myself together in the spring of 2020. And honestly, I'm embarrassed and don't want to write … Continue reading 2021-07-06 — Spiral of a Different Sort

Hey, folks. Hope y'all had a great Independence Day. It's been... interesting for me this last bit. I feel like I'm back, in many ways, where I was last spring--I'm losing my faith in the existence of god… again. But... this time... I'm not angry with god. I'm not fighting bitterness. I'm calm. I'm... at … Continue reading 2021-07-04 — Yesteryear

I did two jobs today (including getting a neverending job done, which always feels nice)... And I said no to everyone who called (well, no fire today I should say). So that's something. 😊 I mashed my knee yesterday, pretty good actually, trying to get that Escape alternator taken care of, and guess what the … Continue reading 2021-07-03 — He Said No

I'm... utterly exhausted. Lots of work. Not a bad day, just... long. First job went really well, except that I apparently never transferred my spark plug gap tools to my new van. Not sure where they are, but they didn't make it to the van, so when I went to do the spark plug job, … Continue reading 2021-07-02 — Utterly Exhausted, On All Counts

We had a family prayer tonight at Chrysti's bedside, family from all over the country gathering. Her body has been ravaged by cancer and destructive medical treatments, and now she's in a coma. Our prayer is that she might pass tonight. At least, as best we can tell, the coma is deep enough that she's … Continue reading 2021-07-01 — Pensive and… Reverent

It's been a tough one here in chiggerville today. I slept in again even though I got to bed at a decent hour. I don't have the luxury of sleeping in tomorrow, though, as I have a dentist appointment at 8:00 a.m. in southwest Rogers (my filling didn't solve the issue, or they didn't adjust … Continue reading 2021-06-30 — Redneck Lawnmower