Another day. Three cars. Been taking it easier. But not getting to bed. Slept 12 hours, but right back at wasting time and going to bed way too late. Way behind with jobs. Lots waiting on me.
Struggling. Discouraged. All the way around. How long will I continue to choose this life that I hate before I choose to just change it?
😕
~ stephen
Lift the World 
Either choose to love every minute, or change what you do. If you wait for conditions to be perfect, they never will be. But you may find what you’ve been waiting for once you take the leap.
Stephen,
Congratulations on getting out there and doing. You are not alone in your challenges. I have done the “working a lot” thing for many years. I’ve also done (still do, sometimes) the “hours of wasted time” thing. Of course, you are not me, but I’m happy to listen some more, or compare notes, any time.
I’m reading an excellent book called Can Christianity Cure Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder? It tells the stories of Martin Luther (started the Lutheran church); John Bunyan (wrote The Pilgrim’s Progress—the most widely published book of all time, after the Bible; and St. Therese of Lisieux, possibly the most beloved Catholic saint—all of whom suffered terribly from recurring intrusive thoughts and compulsions and agonizing questions about God and themselves, and each of whom found profound relief (and wrote about it). Although not exactly what I experience each day, it is close enough to give me hope. I recommend the book.
Hang in there, Stephen. I love you.
Jared
Thanks, jmc! Much appreciated. 🙂 Moving forward, step by step. 🙂