2021-10-24 — Life Makeover

One of you reminded me to, when I’m struggling, re-read what I wrote about who I say I want to become, the person I want to be, what I want to accomplish.

I’ve been… treading water in some ways, while still moving forward in others. But even in the moving forward I have been doing, I haven’t been moving forward in some of the most important ways I’ve wanted to move forward.

But it all changes today.

That’s perhaps overly dramatic sounding, but it is what it is, and I’m not afraid of looking foolish. Today things change. Today, I course correct. Today, I cut out the crap that’s holding me back, and I add the things that will get me where I want to go the ways I want to get there.

It’s funny how I keep coming back to the same habits and attitudes I had in the past, the same steps to take to move forward.

I haven’t changed. What I want. What I don’t want. It’s all still there.

So… the course correct:

1. Today I leave behind wasting my time on TV and movies and sports and porn and anything and everything else that holds me back–again. And if I slip, I’m gonna come back and recommit and recommit as many times as it takes because I. Don’t. Want. To. Waste. My. Life. I have so much more that I want to accomplish, and I truly, in the depths of my heart don’t want those things. I just don’t. They are an escape. They are a clear destruction of my deepest desires, who I know I can become and what I believe I can accomplish in my life and for good in this world. So…
   1. No more screens in my room.
   2. No more screens on if no one else is awake.
   3. No more TV/Movies, worthless news, porn, sports… none of it. I have so much to give this world. No more of this junk!
2. Today, I go to bed early, and I wake up early tomorrow, and I exercise, and I do my 5×5.
3. When I wake up tomorrow, I spend 2 hours working on taxes. That will be the first thing I do, workwise, every day until they’re done. No more binging and crashing and running away and hiding from the hard things. Consistent, dedication until it’s accomplished is what happens from here.
4. When I wake up tomorrow, I will not schedule more than four jobs a day again, and I will not start a new job after 6 p.m.–period.
5. Today, I begin to work on my nonprofit/humanitarian stuff–with or without a name. I will spend at least 30 minutes every day in that effort.
6. Today, I meditate again. I slow down and just take time to be present. 10 minutes, every day.
7. Today, I plan a vacation–regardless of whether or not I’ve got my businesses where I want them.
8. Today, I commit to work harder to be there for my family and friends and to stop working so ridiculously much. I tell myself I am doing that to be able to give 100% of my time to serving in the future. And that’s not a lie. It’s absolutely, 100% true. But it’s not a guarantee. The only guarantee is that I can live and love and lift right now.

So, folks… there you go. It’s 1:18 p.m., my time. I’ll report my progress back to you tonight. And there. will. be. progress.

Love to all!

~ stephen