2021-11-21 — Reset

Hey, folks!

Mission accomplished! I was able to reset, refocus, and re-energize today. 🥳 I’m decently pumped up right now, and I’ve made more plans, both with new stuff and to improve the execution of the current stuff.

Bring it on.

I fear nothing.

D Minus 41 days and counting.

Here’s a truth that I need to face: I’ve got 41 days left. I’m not going to succeed in my goal of being fear free by January 1st if I don’t give more to this. I have to want it badly enough to really, truly dedicate myself to it.

If I’m honest with myself, it’s still peripheral. I don’t need to work. I choose to work. I could take the rest of the year off if I wanted to. I could focus up more, try harder, do more, give more. Why have I not been giving more than I have been to this challenge?

I don’t want it badly enough.

So I don’t prioritize it highly enough.

But I want to want it badly enough to bust my butt about 10,000% harder than I have been. Being pumped isn’t gonna get me anywhere if I don’t do the work. I need to do the work. More work. Focused work.

So… that’s my commitment, no fear, no excuses–just simple fire and dedication. I have 41 days. I will overcome fear. Come what may.

I am fearless. I am love. I am patience. I am kindness. I am integrity. I am courage. I am virtue. I am indomitable.

It’s been a good day. I’ve done a good bit of pondering about fear today. I posted my video, which I hope was a bit more effective today than it has been the last few days. I still have a long way to go before it’s great, though. But it was a good video with an actual useful message today, I think. It was still later than I’d like to have gotten it out. I was going to do one in the morning, but I think I was a bit afraid, and I put it off.

I replaced the wheel bearing on the van, so that was good. I had a good conversation with my mom about fear, processing through some things. That was really good. I had lunch over at Liz’s house on the other hill. I had a nearly two-hour conversation with my oldest brother, also about fear and other things as well. Really good stuff. Grateful to be connecting in this way with family.

Spent a good amount of time researching how to get the best, most efficient sleep possible, and that’s given rise to a tweak of my daily routine and some additions as well.

For example, starting tomorrow, I’ll be writing my journal in the morning, not the evening. One of the purposes of that, is that better sleep occurs when 1. screens are turned off at least 60 minutes before bed, 2. a warm shower is taken about 90 minutes before bed (not really hot, warm), 3. a high-fat dinner is eaten (fat has a bad rap. It’s actually really good and necessary. Just no junk.), etc. 4. You hand write something, like a journal before bed, but research shows a to-do list is even more helpful for restful sleep, so I’ll journal in the mornings. 5. Pitch black, cool room. So I’ve blacked out the glowing cell phone signal booster and the digits on my alarm clock, too. I know I’ve been bothered by even the glowing dots on electronics at night, so I’m blacking everything out.

That’s 5 of like 20ish things I’ve learned that can help increase the efficiency of sleep. Getting more effective sleep in less time than it might take otherwise.

Why are we doing all this? Because the more efficiently I sleep, the more time I’ll have to Lift the World. Simple math. Time is an insanely valuable resource. I want more wake time without harming my body with lack of sleep.

So let it be written…

Daily Accountability

• Bed last night at 8:30: I don’t remember, but odds are I will start remembering better now that I’ll be journaling in the Morning!
• Up at 4: 😎
• 5x5s: 😎
• Exercise: (Sunday off Day)
• Cold shower: Forgot until it was time for my hot shower 🙃
• Meditation: 😎
• Breakfast: 😎
• NP Work: 😎
• Tax Work: Didn’t do any of that today. It was all just fear pondering. Good good stuff.
• Lunch: 😎
• Work done by 6: N/A
• Dinner: 😎
• Only truly healthy foods: 😎
• No Wasted Life: 😎
• No Distracted Driving: 😎
• Faced a Fear: This is a deficiency. I obviously don’t want it badly enough to do this. I’m gonna fix that. I’m going to do what it takes. Fear free by Jan. 1, 2022. No excuses. It’s up to me.
• Tamed the tongue: 😎
• Bag of veggies: 😎

Personal Assessment: Toda was in improvement. I haven’t been giving this fear challenge what it’ll take to overcome all my fear by January 1, 2022. I simply haven’t. No excuses. It’s on me. I obviously don’t want it badly enough to make it the priority that I feel like it ought to be. I have one life to live, and this is an absolutely massive obstacle that holds me back from doing and becoming what I want to do and become.

No excuses. I need to bust my butt about 10,000% more than I am.

For those of you who might be worried. I’m not down on myself. At all. I’m not one, as a rule (with some exceptions) who feels less than, not good enough, etc., so please don’t feel like I’m down on myself when I write things like this. I’m not. It’s objective reality for me. It just is. And I’m gonna change it. And I’m committed to changing it. And I’m passionate about it and fired up about it. I’m not down. At all.

Bring. It. On.

Okay! Time for my evening warm shower, then a little to-do list writing, and then I’m off to la la zzzzz land.

My love to you all! I hope you loved your journeys today. Every day is a good day. Every day. 😊

Lift the World

~ stephen