I just want you to know that I am working on a reply to your post from the other night. That sort of thing takes me hours and hours, usually spread across several days. In the mean time, please know how much I love you! Please know that my heart hurts for your heart hurting. Things *will* look up! Answers *will* come. Your life is *never* ruined. Yes, there can be massive pain, massive questions, and massive regrets. Yes, there can be permanently lost opportunities. Stephen, no human being walks this earth without those things. May you learn to put them in their place and choose and build the life that you would like to have from here on forward – with or without answers, *choose* the life you want to have from here on forward. *Choose* the you you want to be from here on forward. I know that probably all sounds overwhelming when you’ve fallen into the bottom of a well *and* getting over the big C. But those things are the hoist and the bucket to carry you in to raise you up out of the depths. I love you, Stephen. My heart is with you.
Lift the World 
Stephen,
I just want you to know that I am working on a reply to your post from the other night. That sort of thing takes me hours and hours, usually spread across several days. In the mean time, please know how much I love you! Please know that my heart hurts for your heart hurting. Things *will* look up! Answers *will* come. Your life is *never* ruined. Yes, there can be massive pain, massive questions, and massive regrets. Yes, there can be permanently lost opportunities. Stephen, no human being walks this earth without those things. May you learn to put them in their place and choose and build the life that you would like to have from here on forward – with or without answers, *choose* the life you want to have from here on forward. *Choose* the you you want to be from here on forward. I know that probably all sounds overwhelming when you’ve fallen into the bottom of a well *and* getting over the big C. But those things are the hoist and the bucket to carry you in to raise you up out of the depths. I love you, Stephen. My heart is with you.
Everything will work out. Everything will be okay. Things will get better.
Happy New Year! I hope 2022 is the best for you!