I’m getting a bit antsy. Part of me, anyway. Part of me wants to hide away in my room and never come out. Part of me is trying to break out of whatever this mental prison is, so I can… change the world.
I’m a broken record. I’ve said this… so many times.
I’m gonna get there, folks. I’m gonna get there.
In other news, the poison ivy adventure from the other day left me a present this morning in the form of a nice, long, itchy, red streak on the back of my right leg. That’s added to the thick blistery things on my right hand.
Fun fun fun.
Maybe back to work tomorrow.
Lift the World
~ stephen
Lift the World 
Just a thought
Is it possible that your desire to change the world is a big order?
Maybe start small and work your way up to your goals and desires.
Maybe work on changing yourself? Working through your fears.
Everything you do matters. A smile, a helping hand, kind words etc, so many little things work together to change the world.
Let go and free yourself.
You want it so bad that it’s crippling you.
You want a relationship, a life partner so bad that maybe it’s blocking your opportunities?
You are a great guy with so much to offer.
Your body seems to be breaking down from the harsh physical life of a mechanic.
The stock market was a great ambition…just terrible timing with the current events. It is still gambling.
I wish I could help.
If there is anything anyone can do to help, please mention it.
Also curious, what you are looking for in a life partner. Physically, age, personality etc. Maybe one of us can set you up on a blind date?
Stay strong. You are strong!
I was thinking the exact same thing! Enough people changing the lives of a handful, or a town even, and the world shifts for the better! You have life experiences that could make an impact if told to a group of high school students. Maybe there’s a community college that needs a mechanics teacher? Is “changing the world” an excuse you’ve given yourself to fail, because the task is too big for one person? Humans are communal creatures. We need each other. You could probably find a group in your area on Meet Up that has a plan on how to help the community, the town, one neighborhood…if there isn’t one, maybe people are waiting for someone else to take the lead? That could be you being the catalyst for other well-intentioned, paralysed people to spring into action!
Meet Up. I’ll look that up. Thx! No, not looking for excuses to fail. Just still not able to dig out of the pit I’m in emotionally. But I’m fighting, as I write this.
You can do it!
Thanks. 😊
Working on myself, for sure. That’s my constant.
Mechanic work is definitely hard on the body. I’m… getting closer, I hope, to being free of that. It’s definitely a fear thing. Fear of having to start over financially, yet again, if I follow my dreams. Fear of failing in my dreams, i think. Fear of having everything I try fail. Fear of having my hopes all… not come true.
Lots of baggage from the last 12 years of my life that just broke me into little pieces and brought me to not trust anything and feel like everything I do is just gonna fall apart, i think. And lots and lots of reinforcers along the way.