Hey, folks. Hope y'all had a great Independence Day. It's been... interesting for me this last bit. I feel like I'm back, in many ways, where I was last spring--I'm losing my faith in the existence of god… again. But... this time... I'm not angry with god. I'm not fighting bitterness. I'm calm. I'm... at … Continue reading 2021-07-04 — Yesteryear

I did two jobs today (including getting a neverending job done, which always feels nice)... And I said no to everyone who called (well, no fire today I should say). So that's something. 😊 I mashed my knee yesterday, pretty good actually, trying to get that Escape alternator taken care of, and guess what the … Continue reading 2021-07-03 — He Said No

I'm... utterly exhausted. Lots of work. Not a bad day, just... long. First job went really well, except that I apparently never transferred my spark plug gap tools to my new van. Not sure where they are, but they didn't make it to the van, so when I went to do the spark plug job, … Continue reading 2021-07-02 — Utterly Exhausted, On All Counts

We had a family prayer tonight at Chrysti's bedside, family from all over the country gathering. Her body has been ravaged by cancer and destructive medical treatments, and now she's in a coma. Our prayer is that she might pass tonight. At least, as best we can tell, the coma is deep enough that she's … Continue reading 2021-07-01 — Pensive and… Reverent

It's been a tough one here in chiggerville today. I slept in again even though I got to bed at a decent hour. I don't have the luxury of sleeping in tomorrow, though, as I have a dentist appointment at 8:00 a.m. in southwest Rogers (my filling didn't solve the issue, or they didn't adjust … Continue reading 2021-06-30 — Redneck Lawnmower

I got myself back into some ruts while I spiraled last week, and it's hard to dig back out. I'm wanting to come home from work and waste my time watching something on a screen. I hate being in that place. Fortunately, I know that if I fight through these tough days, it won't be … Continue reading 2021-06-29 — Breaking a Little More Free

So... my computer is still down, but gratefully, when I hooked up my computer to the big-screen TV that's been sitting in my room unused for who knows how long, I was happy to learn that I'd set my computer to make the second screen the main screen, so my absolutely smashed laptop screen that … Continue reading 2021-06-28 — Bigger Screen

Hi, all. 🙂 I'm... teetering. I felt like I was turning a corner, but apparently it's a long corner. 🙃 I keep trying to get back to doing the things I know bring me peace, but I keep slipping back into the escapes, the running away and avoiding. That said, I'm making some progress on … Continue reading 2021-06-27 — Teetering

Let's do a gratitude day. I could use one of those. 🙂 #1. I'm grateful that though I was severely lacking in sleep (couldn't fall asleep last night and didn't until about 6 a.m. or so, and I needed to get up at 8), I managed a fairly upbeat day nonetheless. Granted, I went down … Continue reading 2021-06-26 — Round 2

Worked too long today. Probably should have stopped after the first car, but I did two more, and the last two took a long time. Didn't get home until about 12:15 a.m. First car was a radiator fan in a 2017 Infiniti QX60. Second was an electrical issue that I couldn't figure out without sound … Continue reading 2021-06-25 — Busy, Busy, Busy