Don't worry, I won't say that today was my half birthday, and I'm now closer to 40 than I am 39. Why would I say that? 🙃 Today was a more positive, upbeat type of good day today, and I'm grateful. I slept in a bit, chose to do only two cars today (a no … Continue reading 2021-06-24 — Half Birthday

Hey, folks, Happy Thursday. 🙂 I'm writing this entry using my cell phone because I dropped my computer last night and shattered my screen. Whoops. I'm glad phones are as capable as they are nowadays. I didn't do much today, but I did get out of the house, and I worked on 3 cars--three quick … Continue reading 2021-06-23 — Out of the House

No real change today. No progress. Just addictions (multiple that are dominating me right now), and lots of... just... stuff. I'm tired. I'm tired of no way out but through. Hope y'all are having better days than I. ~ stephen 

I'm stuck. Struggling. Hiding. Avoiding. Please don't comment today. Don't want to face it. Thanks, though. I know you support me. ~ stephen 

It's been... much of the same today as it was yesterday. I didn't really leave my room at all today except to get food and basically go right back up the stairs to my room. I'm a bit better than yesterday, both physically and emotionally. Interestingly, after taking a whole migraine pill instead of only … Continue reading 2021-06-20 — The Wrestle

Gratefully, I was able to cancel my day today. I'm not doing so well, and I've been on edge all day. Migraine meds not helping. I'd been hopeful I'd found the issue, but it appears perhaps not. Oh well. Life goes on. Loves and hugs. Lift the World. ~ stephen 

Only did one car today. Pads and rotors all around on a 2008 Chevrolet Impala. They prayed for my Hill sister. They gave me a $200 tip. Wow. Fixed the lawn mower. Mowed about half the yard/trails. Not doing so well, but I did some things right today. Lift the World. ~ stephen 

Today has been a blur. It's 3:50 a.m. Apparently, I'm late to bed. 🙃 I'm on the edge right now. Need to eat, drink, and take a migraine pill. I guess we'll see how I do after that. Small headache. Two cars. Nightmare alternator (threads in the bracket stripped... simple job made much more complicated.). … Continue reading 2021-06-17 — Blur

I'm battling relapse right now. I really want to use. Badly. I didn't want to tell anyone, but I told one friend, and she's trying to talk me off the ledge right now, and I'm... struggling. Talk about white knuckle. Really struggling. Been flirting with it for a while... and finally closed the gateway stuff … Continue reading 2021-06-16 — Front Lines

Too much work. Not enough mental time off. I'm spent. My soul is drying up. Need to get both physical and emotional rest. Need to take care of myself. Dailies are terrible right now. Work is way too much because I'm not saying 'no'. And that's all a recipe for disaster. Can't remember what my … Continue reading 2021-06-15 — Drying Up