Been sliding pretty hard. All of my commitments from the 13th have now been broken. Every. Single. One. My back has been awful. I imagine that has played a part in it. I re-decided to go on the trip. I talked to my insurance company, and supposedly, they're willing to let me do the MRIs … Continue reading 2024-09-05 (Thursday) — Starlinked Moonroof

Not well. Tired of writing that. Sorry. 😕 My back and nerve issues are just... killing me right now. That dominates. It's not excruciating pain. It's just the kind of pain and sensation that is just bad enough that it's continually nagging, often just bad enough that I can't be distracted away from it very … Continue reading 2024-09-02 (Monday) — Trailer Back, Badly Damaged

It's been a rough day. This morning went down to the creek to think and what not. I spent some time listening to that pastor's book... High Road Leadership. Good stuff. Felt like I would give it a go to try and talk to God again. Tried and... struggled to focus. An hour later I … Continue reading 2024-08-30 (Friday) — MRI Menu

(written on the 30th as though the 29th) Finally paid for the lawn mower tire that I got last week. Kept forgetting, and I felt bad because I figured with me not showing up, they probably figured I just skipped out without paying. But I got it paid for today. So that's good. I also … Continue reading 2024-08-29 (Thursday #2) — Hero of the Game

Guess I didn't get to the second post yesterday... It's uncanny how every time I try to push through everything I'm struggling with to make progress, it's like I just get slammed. Maybe today's version was a good thing. My back has been just crazy bad lately, all the nerve issues and everything. As I … Continue reading 2024-08-29 (Thursday #1) — Catfish

I'm lying here sort of propped up in my bed... trying to figure out exactly what I want to write. My mind is bouncing around from thought to thought. I've been in bad shape for a good long time--emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually... in pretty much everything. I want to break free and become who … Continue reading 2024-08-28 (Wednesday #1) — A Beautiful Alternative

I guess I had better write something. It's Tuesday morning. I'm lying in bed. My back hurts. Nerves are on fire. After living with this for so long, it's hard to tell what's pain and what's burning and whatnot. Anyway... Sunday... Sunday was a heavy equipment day. I got all the dirt moved to where … Continue reading 2024-08-26 (Monday) — Reasonably Compensated

Uh... today... I listed my New Holland mini excavator for sale. I just made up a price because I have no idea what it's worth. I guess we'll see what kind of interest I garner. Went over to my mom's place again to sort of work through this whole reasonable compensation thing. So much effort. … Continue reading 2024-08-24 (Saturday) — Starlinked

(written on the 24th as though the 23rd) I was in such a bad space yesterday that I didn't mention several things about the day itself. I replaced the damaged zerks in my excavator and regreased the zerk fittings. I spent I don't even know how Long, possibly hours, just trying to find the year … Continue reading 2024-08-23 (Friday) — Headway… I Hope

It's been two months now that I've been living down by the creek. That's as long as I was in New Zealand. Crazy. Rough day. I think the truth of life is that no matter how bad things are, they can always get worse. All of my fears are coming true, some of them far … Continue reading 2024-08-22 (Thursday) — Two Months