Hey y'all, happy Wednesday. I'm kind of happy that it's Wednesday, and that I'll be taking tomorrow "off." So nice. Soooooo nice. I was feeling pretty low still this morning. I didn't get up at 5:30. I'd had the night thing happen last night a little bit in the middle of the night. That woke … Continue reading 2020-09-09 — Crash and Take Off

Hidy-ho, peeps, Happy Tuesday 🙂. I still find myself trying to pick myself up after my relapse last week. It's been really hard. I've been halfway between discouraged and depressed, I think. At the moment, I'm feeling somewhat better. I'm making progress in my actions. It's just not corresponding very well into my mental/emotional/spiritual state. … Continue reading 2020-09-08 — Trying to Pick Myself Up

Hey, folks, It's been a rough day today, so I'm gonna just focus on gratitude and call it good. #1. I'm grateful that I was able to get myself up at 5:30 this morning. #2. I'm grateful that I was able to do all my morning dailies today--exercise, shower, prayer, meditation, personal study, and breakfast. … Continue reading 2020-09-07 — Finally 5:30

Hey, folks. It's been a rough day for me. I didn't get enough sleep because I went to bed so late. Fortunately, I was still able to stay mostly on top of things with my dailies--meditating, studying, praying, etc. I'm usually quite on top of things after a relapse, determined to do better. So that … Continue reading 2020-09-06 — Trying to Get Up

Hey y'all, Rough day today. Pretty much right at 5 months, I relapsed in porn. Man, I was doing so well. I wasn't wanting any. I didn't even really see it coming tonight. I was trying to do good things. I was listening to gospel stuff up until like 20 minutes before. Then I started … Continue reading 2020-09-05 — Relapse

hola, my peeps! Let's hope that this journal entry is the last one for a long time that I write via dictating to my phone while driving. Why? well, because I am only about an hour and 15 minutes away from being home. 3 weeks, 14 states, and over 5,500 Miles later, I'll be home, … Continue reading 2020-09-04 — Home Again

Good evening, my lovelies! 🙂 I am once again dictating my journal entry tonight on my cell phone as I drive, this time through the deserts of Arizona. It is currently 9:35 p.m. Pacific time, and I just filled up for gas so that I'm not stretching it trying to get the Flagstaff tonight, which … Continue reading 2020-09-03 — The Long Journey Back

Hiya, all you wonderful people, you. 🙂 Happy Wednesday! I think I slept decently well last night on my side-of-the-road car hotel. No one bothered me, and I probably got somewhere around 4-5 hours of sleep, I think, probably closer to 5. I got up around 5:30 and got to work trying to get my … Continue reading 2020-09-02 — Overheats and Insights

I'm somewhere south of Fresno but north of Bakersfield. I stopped early from what I had planned to drive tonight because I have a massive migraine and because I somehow forgot that today was Tuesday, thinking that it was wednesday. I didn't schedule anything for David tomorrow, so now I have to get up super … Continue reading 2020-09-01 — Migraining