Hey, folks. Hope y’all had a great Independence Day.
It’s been… interesting for me this last bit. I feel like I’m back, in many ways, where I was last spring–I’m losing my faith in the existence of god… again.
But… this time… I’m not angry with god. I’m not fighting bitterness. I’m calm. I’m… at peace?
I’m just… sort of accepting it. Letting go of what I’ve believed.
It’s not that I won’t end up back there again. I wouldn’t be surprised if I do. In fact, this could all just be a… temporary thing while I work through some stuff. I just… see myself and feel myself in this trajectory that feels… like I’m along for the ride.
It’s almost like I’m a passive observer to my life, my beliefs, and all… all that… just changing, shifting, without me really even doing anything… deliberate? I just seem to be floating along on a slow-moving river watching it unfold, boat afloat but without oars.
My life changed so much almost exactly a year ago, and now I’m coming full circle in some ways. In some ways having grown quite a bit. In some ways… starting over… again.
What a journey this is.
Slept in. Took care of the goats. Weeded by the mailboxes (large strip that was way overgrown). Cooled off in the creek. 😊
Not much to say, but I am grateful to still know who I am through my journey. Who I am and what I want doesn’t change, not in the most important of senses.
Anyway, to bed again.
Goodnight, folks.
Lift the World
~ stephen
Lift the World 
Goodnight, my dear brother. I just finished reading a little book called The Midnight Library. It began a little slowly, but by the end I came away with such a beautiful shift in perspective about life and living. A shift that came at just the right time. A story about the validity of choice and throwing off the useless ballast of regret. It’s worth a read, or a listen 🙂
I feel you and relate, even though I’ve never met you. We are all going to die eventually. So just enjoy the ride. Do what feels right and makes you feel good inside. Everything will work out as it should. 🙂
You are an amazing person.
Love you brother…. may you find connection inside yourself with yourself again… Tish’s suggestion sounds wonderful and interesting. Blogreader, whoever you may be, thank you so much for your support of my wonderful brother… That means the world to me… May you also find and feel the blessings woven in and through your life path…
Same to you 😊❤️