After 5 a.m. I didn't plan this. 🙃 I thought I'd done well at saying no. I thought I'd gotten is pretty well taken care of to get home in time for dinner and whatnot, but nope. I forgot one of the jobs that we had to do, and then I said yes to a … Continue reading 2021-08-14 — Unplanned Madrugada

Today has been hell from start to finish. Maybe I shouldn't have chosen to work on Friday the 13th. 🙃 I'm at the gas station filling up before heading home, and Cory is at my house waiting for me. Ugh. Really really really really really rough day. I had this massive day lined up, with … Continue reading 2021-08-13 — Friday the 13th Hell

So my friend Cory told me yesterday that he was thinking about coming out for a visit. And then today he called to tell me he was on the road headed my way. 😁🥳😊 Wahoo!!! He's in Cheyenne, WY at the moment, so he'll probably get in sometime late tomorrow night, I would guess. Let's … Continue reading 2021-08-12 — Cory’s Coming!!!

Hola, peeps. 🙂 The day started hard again today. I didn't want to get up when my alarm went off. I found myself filled with discouragement and sadness. I just wanted to stay in bed, go back to sleep.... avoid the world. But... I had a full schedule, and people waiting on me, so that … Continue reading 2021-08-11 — Try For Two

Started off pretty rough today, really struggling, so I texted my Hill brother and asked if he could chat, and he made some time for me, for which I'm grateful. Somewhere around... noonish? we went to the deck that overhangs the creek and chatted. I told him what I'm struggling with, and we talked for … Continue reading 2021-08-10 — Hope and Withdrawals

I'm getting worse. Angrier, more resentful. I wish I could say that weren't the case, but day by day, I can feel myself... like a pressure cooker... 😕 Today was rough. It wasn't even that everything went sideways, though plenty certainly did. I just... I'm losing it. I'm not me anymore. Well... I guess I'm … Continue reading 2021-08-09 — Getting Worse

Sort of my new Sunday normal... So tired from killing myself all week that I just sleep most of the day. I'm exhausted. My body is just completely worn out. My mind and heart as well. Perhaps the one bright side is that it's only 7:58, and I'm writing my journal entry because my eyes … Continue reading 2021-08-08 — Heavy Eyelids

Coming up on 120 a.m., and I'm in Springdale Arkansas at the CNG station filling up my van at the end of a long day. I got started late, and I'm ending quite late. Seven cars today. Well, eight cars, but only seven that I charged for. I slept in again a bit, getting up … Continue reading 2021-08-07 — A Little Bit of Everything

Well... another day in the books. Made good progress on tax stuff, really good progress. So that's something. The Sonata from last night that I ran into issues with ended up giving me more fits today without even getting to the car. Both alternators tested good, so there's something wrong with the car's electrical... computer... … Continue reading 2021-08-06 — Plodding Along

Everyday is a good day: It's just good in different ways. Today has been sort of a discouraging type of good day. I don't even remember when I got up. I don't think it was that late, maybe 8 something. I've been working on my tax stuff more consistently, so I didn't leave for work … Continue reading 2021-08-05 — Not Home By 6:30