Hiya, folks, I'm not sure how it happens. I work fewer hours, and yet I'm buried deeper. That's what it feels like (just in terms of life and all of the things I have to do and get done). It's just uncanny. I know I mentioned something similar not too long ago, but it's just... … Continue reading 2021-03-26 — Falling Farther Behind

Well, I'm a lot later than I was hoping because WordPress, apparently, keeps decreasing functionality, and now copy and paste doesn't work anymore on their pages. It'll say it's copied, but it won't paste anything, and it's got a mind of it's own trying to highlight as well. It's... fabulous... for practicing patience. 🙃 I … Continue reading 2021-03-25 — Distracted

So... Today was day three since the relapse. I was better today than yesterday, but I've made my stand. Three days is enough. Story... "Thomas Edison devoted ten years and all of his money to developing the nickel-alkaline storage battery at a time when he was almost penniless. Through that period of time, his record … Continue reading 2021-03-24 — Indomitable

Hey, y'all. I chose not to work again today... Just... not with. It I relapsed in multiple things last night, porn and TV time wasting--bouncing back and forth between porn and watching like four or five episodes of Chuck. I really like that show. But... it's not what I want to be spending my time … Continue reading 2021-03-23 — Trying to Pull Out

I relapsed again. Feels like the same old same old spiral. 😞. Heaven help me. Really. ~ stephen

I relapsed today. I flirted with it last night and had a narrow miss, and then I full blown did today, just an hour ago or so. I can't express in words how devastated I am. ...I was doing... so well... 😞 ~ stephen

I'm still fighting to get my body back to normal. I've been mostly good today. My mouth is dry all the time, which makes me think I'm dehydrated, but I'm not. Before dinner tonight, I'd only taken in like 9 oz o fluid today, and I had peed out 109, and yet my pee was … Continue reading 2021-03-20 — Almost Out of the Woods?

There's a Queen song... one of the lines, repeated many many times in the song is "It finally happened." Of course the song is referring to "going slightly mad." For me, it's a lot more positive. I'm feeling better!!! Wahoo. 😊🥳 I stayed home again today. I've done all of two jobs all week. 🙃 … Continue reading 2021-03-19 — Third Day Charm

Hiya, folks. Been a good day. 🙂 My body hates, me, unfortunately. I've been over the edge all but maybe an hour today? Currently, I'm still over, and I think I've done everything right today. That's two days now. I'm not sure what's going on. I've really taken care of myself. It makes no sense. … Continue reading 2021-03-18 — Still Over the Edge

Over the edge. Head not doing well. Body not doing well. I thought I took care of myself. Think maybe things are getting worse? Didn't think it's a blood sugar issue, but my readings always seem high. They say 70-90 is normal. I'm pretty much always way higher than that. I need to start testing … Continue reading 2021-03-17 — Time to Figure This Out