Hi, folks, One of the challenges for me in writing this daily journal is the recurring discouragement of sharing where I'm at, the struggles I'm going through, and the sense, be it accurate or not, that some of my readers are frustrated with my inability to overcome some of my personal issues. It's hard to … Continue reading 2021-01-24 — Getting Up

I'm exhausted. Glad it's time to sleep. Glad it's Sunday tomorrow. #1. I'm grateful I got the fuel pump/tank/lines job done finally. #2. I'm glad the job from yesterday I had to go back to today was a super easy fix. #3. I'm grateful my mom sent me out with food this morning. Saved my … Continue reading 2021-01-23 — Crashing

Relapsed. Another nightmare day. Not sure how it's possible to have so many things go sideways in a week. It's just... it's literally like the universe has planned it. I'm just at a loss and crumbled in little pieces. I feel like I've reverted to the person I was at the beginning of last year... … Continue reading 2021-01-22 — 🙁

Things might be changing faster than I'd thought. I let David go today. 😕 I just... my standards for work are just higher than what he does. I feel like he's a good, honest guy, but what he thinks is good work and what I think is good work... it's just... we're not compatible. I'm … Continue reading 2021-01-21 — The Winds of Change

Hey, folks, Ditto, repeat, clone, reprise, duplicated... whatever you want to call it. Today was yesterday... mostly. It took me 5 1/2 hours of madness (everything going wrong that could go wrong) today before I finally just broke down again, not as badly as yesterday, but it... ugh. Eight hours after I started working on … Continue reading 2021-01-20 — Come in Pairs

Today has been a nightmare. Knee still screwed up (didn't mention that yesterday... swelled up again for no reason). David didn't get any cars done today even after working all day. I didn't either. One mess after another after another after another after another. I blew my top and had a complete meltdown late afternoon. … Continue reading 2021-01-19 — Nightmare

Today was a bit of a nuthouse, but every day is a good day. It's just good in different ways. 🙃 The best part of the day for me? Probably the 30 minutes I chose to take, time I didn't really actually have, to go out to the woods this morning before leaving for my … Continue reading 2021-01-18 — At Least I Got the Trees

Happy Sunday. 😊 Hope y'all have had a beautiful day. 😊 I slept in today, studied a bit, got caught a little sideways with a conference talk I listened to about families (teared up a little bit and felt lonely for a little while, but not too long), had three meetings today (elder's quorum, sacrament, … Continue reading 2021-01-17 — Ever Forward

Hola, Peeps. 😊 Happy Saturday! 😊 How about a gratitude day. Haven't had one of those since... Thanksgiving week? #1. I'm grateful that I slept well last night. No headache! 🥳 #2. I'm grateful that I've been pretty much 100% today (health wise). It's been sooooooo nice! #3. I'm grateful that I feel like I … Continue reading 2021-01-16 — Time to Rest

Hi, folks. 😊 It was a rough day yesterday, and it was a rough night. I went to bed about 9, and then I woke up at 11 with my head hurting quite a bit. I tried to take a blood sugar reading. Seemed high, but my test strips are expired, my control solution is … Continue reading 2021-01-15 — Trying to Pull Out