It's not even noon. I've lost almost $20,000 trading since I started. I just couldn't stop myself today. Down nearly $16000 in just one day. There was nothing good to trade today during trading time, but could I have any discipline to not trade? Nope. I knew I wasn't doing what I should. I knew … Continue reading 2025-01-02 (Thursday) — New Year, Same Pathetic Me

It was a bit of a rough night last night. I went to bed earlier than I have in a long long time, and I had crazy weird dreams all night, sort of lucid dreaming, I think. I woke up for good I think somewhere around 5:10ish, finally giving up on the possibility of falling … Continue reading 2024-12-31 (Tuesday) — Clawing Back

(written on the 31st) Today was an absolutely devastating day. I returned to my old arrogant ways in my day trading, thinking that even though cognitively, I knew I was not properly prepared to train with big size yet, I just couldn't help myself getting in and sizing up. The results were absolutely devastating. I … Continue reading 2024-12-30 (Monday) — Biggest Loser

(written on the 31st) It's a little weird not trading. I miss it. 🙃 Had something odd happened last night before I went to bed. I started having another allergic reaction. It wasn't anywhere near as bad as the one that was sending me into anaphylactic shock when I was in Washington state back in … Continue reading 2024-12-28 (Saturday) — New Holland Down

So I mentioned on my post from the 23rd that I was surprised by the fees. Let's just say that the fees have been shocking this week. Christmas Eve morning, I managed to once again come to the end of the day up about $150. This time, though, it wasn't just a measly $11, which … Continue reading 2024-12-27 (Friday) — Up, But Lucky?

(mostly written on the 23rd, partially written on the 28th) I can't let myself celebrate too much because I'm still lacking significantly in my basic competency, but I've had two green trading days in a row. 🎉 I think I made $48 on Friday, for an overall $36 gain in my old trading account before … Continue reading 2024-12-23 (Monday) — Two In A Row

It's amazing how quickly time flies these days. Can't believe it's almost Christmas. 😶 Haven't spent Christmas in Arkansas for a few years, at least. In 2022, I was in New Zealand. I miss New Zealand. 🙃 Last year I was in Utah. I think I was in Arkansas for 2021, because I think I … Continue reading 2024-12-20 (Friday) — Want to Trade?

Habits are interesting things. I'm completely out of the habit of writing in my journal, but when I hop in Rover, as I just did, to head to town for the first time in, gosh, I don't even know how long, one of the first things that pops in my brain is to write my … Continue reading 2024-12-09 (Monday) — All Scanned Out

Not much to write about today. As with the last handful of days, I've just been  working for JustAnswer while scanning business documents all day. Continuing to make slow but steady progress. Showered. Went to the hill to Liz's house for Thanksgiving dinner. Chatted with family there. Didn't eat much at all (trying to get … Continue reading 2024-11-28 (Thursday) — Happy Gratitude Day

(written on the 28th) The idea of jumping back into the stock market has been on my mind regularly for quite a long time. I'm fact, I've been kicking myself a little bit for not having been prepared for the post election surge of certain securities that clearly were going to go up in value … Continue reading 2024-11-27 (Wednesday) — More Stuff Sold