Tried to spend a lot less time sliding into thinking about things that are painful. So... today wasn't as painful. Again, good to be with family. Hard to watch my aunt deteriorating. Still have lots of things to work through just to know where a I'm at and where I'm going, but it was a … Continue reading 2022-07-15 — A Bit Lighter

I slept in a little later this morning, as it was cloudy, so the sudden didn't bake the car as soon as it came up. I think it was 9 something before I finally got up for the last time. One of the first things that I did was check the news, where I saw … Continue reading 2022-07-14 — Down Up

After taking the night shift watching over my aunt as the last of her mortal days slip away, I took a very long nap (another 4 hours or so), are breakfast, chatted a little with family, and then, feeling lonely and struggling quite a bit internally, despite wonderful, loving family all around, I drove away … Continue reading 2022-07-13 — Mountain Retreat

Hey all, Today was a repeat of yesterday. Good to see family, cousins I hadn't seen in years. My sister from South Dakota, a 1st cousin once removed, I believe is the proper relation, etc. Love and hugs. Yep. Good to see them. Personally, I'm doing much worse. I'm fighting the internal battle between not … Continue reading 2022-07-12 — Repeat

Happy 7-11 Day. 🙂 Did you get your free slurpee? It's been good to spend time with family today. It's also been hard. I'm not doing well. It's time for me to go to bed, so I guess this is all you're going to get today. Love and hugs. Lift the World ~ stephen

Tossed and turned, my brain churning and churning. A million thoughts racing and keeping me awake. When I finally feel asleep again, I had a dream that things were finally possible with a special someone, after waiting and waiting and waiting, but then... she didn't want me. Not a very fun dream. But that's ok. … Continue reading 2022-07-10 — My Favorite Canyon

Hiya, folks. It's been a hard, rough, painful day. I'm tired. I'm discouraged. I'm lonely. It was a day with ups and downs, like every other. I'm just... yeah. Catch y'all tomorrow. Love and hugs. Lift the World ~ stephen

My sense of time is all a jumble. I can't remember clearly what's happened on what day since I've been here. But I'm pretty sure that was the day that I found out that my aunt will be bidding farewell to this life soon. With all the complications, she's chosen to let it all run … Continue reading 2022-07-08 — Family… Gathering

Hola, folks. 🙂 Happy... Thursday? Slept in the hospital parking lot after visiting my aunt. Slept decently well. Visited my aunt again in the morning and also chatted a bit with an uncle and briefly with a cousin. Good to see everyone. My aunt wanted to take a nap, so I headed up to Salt … Continue reading 2022-07-07 — Catching Up

Woke up about 6:30 this morning after an undisturbed night in the back seat of my Civic. I figured that it was a good time to switch spots, heading up the canyon, so I did. But I ran into an awkward issue right away. I turned the car on without unlocking the doors first, and … Continue reading 2022-07-06 — Pull My Finger, Magneto