Better day today than yesterday. Got out of bed. Did some laundry. Did three cars--noise diagnosis (bad fan), wheel wobble diagnosis (bad inner tie rods), and a starter replacement (ignition wire was shorted to itself, so once engaged, it would just crank and crank and crank. Got a little more done on the assessment work … Continue reading 2021-05-05 — Digging A Little

I haven't left my bed pretty much all day. Paralyzed again. Falling apart. Can't seem to face life. ~ stephen

Hey, folks, thanks, for your support! I'm in a much better place today than I was yesterday. I'm not 100%, but I'm much much better. It's been relapses, lots of wasted time, feeling emotionally and physically paralyzed and spiritually nearly dead, but now I'm feeling much better than yesterday. I sort of took the day … Continue reading 2021-05-03 — Pulling Out

I'm a bit paralyzed today. I can't even do the things I love--enjoy the rain on my day off, participate in the family meeting. I can't get myself to do anything but watch documentaries of various historical things and debates about the existence of God, etc. I'm just... paralyzed. Depression settling in. 🙁 ~ stephen

Impromptu day off today. Bookend relapses with a day full of service between. Certainly not a great day but... I'm gonna focus on the good. I chose to take today off instead of pushing myself further when I was already down. So that was good. I spent the day helping other people, fixing a couple … Continue reading 2021-05-01 — Trying to Slow Down

No, I didn't miss today. It may be 5:55 a.m., but I haven't gone to bed yet. In fact, I only just now walked in the door. It's been a long, very frustrating night. I've just been... livid. The day went decently well up until about 7:30 or so (warranty battery job, battery job, no … Continue reading 2021-04-30 — No, I Didn’t Miss Today

Hey, y'all! Happy... what day is it? Thursday! Happy Thursday! It's been an interesting day today. The story of today actually starts yesterday. I need to do my assessment, right? And it was raining pretty good yesterday, so I thought, I'll pull everything out of the Durango, throw it in the garage, and then that'll … Continue reading 2021-04-29 — I Will Listen Next Time

Good evening to y'all. Guess what? The skid steer arrived just in time. 🙂 It was gonna be a really stormy day today, so I chose to take it off and head on in to the DMV to get my van registered. I headed that way, and it was pouring down rain as I drove--pouring. … Continue reading 2021-04-28 — Justo A Tiempo

Holar. It's been an interesting day today. 🙂 I had a bit of a challenging but ultimately really positive conversation with a dear friend of mine last night after journaling. The convo lasted until after midnight, so I was late to bed, but I think really good things have already come from it, so that's … Continue reading 2021-04-27 — I… Did it Again. 🙃

Been a long day. Nightmare last night. Probably because I ate too much before bed, and that's... one of the most common causes of nightmares, so... yeah. Woke up at 2 a.m. Couldn't fall back asleep, then finally did who knows when, and slept until 7. So... that wasn't 4:25, but it's better than 8 … Continue reading 2021-04-26 — At Least I Tried.