Only did one car today. Pads and rotors all around on a 2008 Chevrolet Impala. They prayed for my Hill sister. They gave me a $200 tip. Wow. Fixed the lawn mower. Mowed about half the yard/trails. Not doing so well, but I did some things right today. Lift the World. ~ stephen 

Today has been a blur. It's 3:50 a.m. Apparently, I'm late to bed. 🙃 I'm on the edge right now. Need to eat, drink, and take a migraine pill. I guess we'll see how I do after that. Small headache. Two cars. Nightmare alternator (threads in the bracket stripped... simple job made much more complicated.). … Continue reading 2021-06-17 — Blur

I'm battling relapse right now. I really want to use. Badly. I didn't want to tell anyone, but I told one friend, and she's trying to talk me off the ledge right now, and I'm... struggling. Talk about white knuckle. Really struggling. Been flirting with it for a while... and finally closed the gateway stuff … Continue reading 2021-06-16 — Front Lines

Too much work. Not enough mental time off. I'm spent. My soul is drying up. Need to get both physical and emotional rest. Need to take care of myself. Dailies are terrible right now. Work is way too much because I'm not saying 'no'. And that's all a recipe for disaster. Can't remember what my … Continue reading 2021-06-15 — Drying Up

I'm pretty vulnerable right now. I've been slipping a bit the last little bit, and today it got pretty bad. Not doing very well in the morning dailies (chats with the Big Guy, study, etc.), and it's showed. I've been quicker to be overwhelmed, quicker to frustration, quicker to anger, quicker to make decisions that … Continue reading 2021-06-14 — The Rally

Hiya, folks. 😊 I'm feeling a little of the Sunday blues right now? I haven't had those in a long time, and they only just started coming on in the last 15 minutes or so. Well... I guess things were a little hard for a brief bit earlier today as well because one of the … Continue reading 2021-06-13 — Permanentizing

I'm ready for a Sabbath. 😊 It's been quite the crazy week. Seems like so much has happened. Good good week. 😊 Let's see... today... up, a few dailies, then off to work. My first job was a nightmare, but she stopped me in the middle, so that was a bit of an escape. She … Continue reading 2021-06-12 — Needling Around

I'm just beat. It's been a long, exhausting day, and at the moment, I'm not in a very good space--a bit frustrated (residual frustration... meaning that I'm not really frustrated at anything directly, just leftovers leading to a bad attitude). Let's see... the day... I hadn't heard from my friend early this morning about the … Continue reading 2021-06-11 — Beat

Um... an 18 gauge needle is HUGE!!! 😶 The needles I ordered to aspirate my knee came in today, and I looked at the diameter of the needle through the sterile packaging, and my eyes went. 😲 Call me a wuss, but it makes me think twice about aspirating my own prepatellar bursitis bubble on … Continue reading 2021-06-10 — A Count Ant

Day started off early and triggery... My brain woke up around 6:30, far before I wanted to get up, and it was just one triggering thought after another--an absolute onslaught that lasted for like... two hours--trying to sleep while simultaneously trying to beat out the thoughts. And the day was filled with triggers, right, left, … Continue reading 2021-06-09 — Muchos Triggeros