Well, started off a bit rough. Relapsed again. But then, I had the thought of something to do that might lift me and another person at the same time, and we did it, and we were both lifted considerably, and that was fabulous. 😊 So, that was really good. Kind of going from dark to … Continue reading 2021-04-25 — From Dark to Light

I was dragging today. Not bad, just dragging. Just... burned out. I did four cars (diagnosis and belt replacement (crank pulley coming apart), diagnosis and spark plugs (misfire due to bad spark plug), headlight bulb replacement, and no start/bad noise trying to start diagnosis (seized AC compressor. Then came home relatively early (6:30 ish?) and … Continue reading 2021-04-24 — Relapse Inc.

It's almost nine. I'm not tired. I want to run around like a crazy person and get stuff done because I have energy and the motivation to do it, buuuuuuuuut... I want to get back on my schedule of getting up at 4:25. So... I need to discipline myself right now and not go put … Continue reading 2021-04-23 — More Progress.

Holar, y'all. 🙂 Happy... Thursday? Hope you've had a lovely day. 🙂 I took it super slowly again today. Didn't leave for my first job (which turned out to be my only job) until like... noonish? I don't remember for sure. I slept in a little bit, put Captain Universe first again once I woke … Continue reading 2021-04-22 — New Wheels… Again 🙃

Hey, guess what?!?! I took an impromptu day off today, spending a whole bunch of time in the woods clearing trails. And I made great progress. 🙂 Wahoo! I... was up until 4. First with that great conversation with my dear friend. And then writing last night's post, and then... watching YouTube videos, mostly of … Continue reading 2021-04-21 — ‘Nother Mental Health Day

Thank you, all, for your support. I'm... still here. 🙂 And I'm still here and writing again tonight because... well, for a few reasons: #1 Because I realized last night, I think it was, that sharing the good, the bad, the ugly, the whatever, the realities of the ups and downs of my life was … Continue reading 2021-04-20 — Signing On?

I'm really struggling, and I'm tired of reporting that to all y'all day in and day out. Just reporting that is adding to my already sky high level of discouragement, and I'm just tired. I'm tired of life. No, I'm not suicidal in any realistic degree. I'm just burned out of life right now. I … Continue reading 2021-04-19 — Signing Off

Hey, folks, happy Sunday. It's been an interesting day. I relapsed last night. It was late. I finished my post and was like, "I'm gonna check the news." Now, I've felt like I shouldn't look at the news. It can, sometimes be a trigger, and it's usually an unnecessary downer as well, but I hadn't … Continue reading 2021-04-18 — Deck Builders

Holar! Been an interesting day. Black lung? I just coughed up a bunch of gooey cold crud from my lungs, and either my lungs are turning black inside, or I've been breathing in yucky work chemicals, because my lung mucus stuff was full of black crap. Lovely. One more reason to retire from cars. Too … Continue reading 2021-04-17 — Week’s End

I keep thinking it's allergies, and then it turns out to be a cold/virus of some kind. I always forget that lately (at least since moving to Arkansas?), my colds start out feeling like an allergy attack. For the future, if I forget again, remind me that when I sneeze like 5 times in a … Continue reading 2021-04-16 — Garage Day